Wing Chronicles

Patience

2007-06-07T07:20:00.000-07:00

Its hard to lower your pride a bit and try to understand what the other person is trying to say.. but when the response is something as bad as utter silence (what? not even a nod?).. then that becomes problematic..

When you try to lower your pride a little bit more than the first with some hope that the other party will finally say something but was futile.. then that's it.. forget about exerting effort..(how would you feel when you keep on asking/talking to someone but get no response in return? wouldn't you feel bad? insulted? foolish? - try doing that so you will know how it feels like)

Nothing can be accomplished with sheer silence.. in fact it aggravates a person more, which can actually lead to a really bad situation.. geez.. that's what communication is for!

just my two cents.. no harm intended.. thank you very much :D

Graduation blahs

2007-04-22T22:49:00.001-07:00

Finally.. after all those sweat, blood and tears (literally), I/we finally made it! Congratulations to all fellow K3 blockmates!! I labshue ol! hahah! will post pictures later coz I'm actually too lazy to do it now.. heheh

Unlike all others though.. Yesterday was one of the hardest day too.. as I've said, "Last minute haggardness, I'll put everything into this since this will be the very last". Yep, as part of the graduation ceremony committee.. and an assistant head at that, I went to UP Film center last night to do my job.. alas! there were only four of us and no ushers in sight.. Kudos to Bebang, Melai and (I dunno the name of the other one) for still doing their jobs well despite the fact that we should all be taking a rest since the ceremony was slated at 8am today.. We had to cut hundreds of papers, double sided tapes, stick everything into place, and inhale spray paints for several hours.. I treated myself and two others at chocolate kiss though (and the resto drained my wallet real damn good - 500php for dinner.. lol)..

all of them (staffs and CS peeps) went home at 11:30.. me, my sis and Jl had to wait for my mom though.. (I think it took about 1 hr and 30 mins) It was like a scene from a horror movie.. everything was dark since the guard turned off all the lights.. lol I cringed at the thought of seeing ghosts since my friend had lots of ghostly encounters at the venue.. lolz Thank God I haven't seen anything! Oh yeah.. I attended graduation today with newborn pimples because of that!

anyway... this is it! I'll upload all acknowledgment things later.. hahah! My only regret is that I wasn't able to attend the University graduation rites since we went to Eastwood Libis for my blowout right after the college grad.. my dad and my mom have appointments too.. so I went home early and slept.. T_______T

Blockmates, thank you for eveything! I actually cried while watching the AVP's final part.. silly me XD

UP is definitely one of a kind! My experience in the College of Masscom thought me to be critical, aware and open-minded.. (mre importantly, everything is a social construct.. heheh kiddin!) anyway.. my post is getting emo now.. so I'll cut this and post the continuation tomorrow.. jk

Ack.. and I'm currently looking for a condo unit or apartment somewhere in Katipunan? I hope that my sister and I can move in by this week... XD

Frustrations

2007-03-12T06:08:00.000-07:00

I'm on the verge of breaking down... hahah! like that will do me any good noh? And before I reach that point.. I heard that it will do me good if I'll just take it off my system.. so there.. here I am.. ranting again.. (people are so busy they don't have time for a small talk nowadays..)

my only stress reliever is "Lord Allan"... or LA-chan for more.. lol... my laptop! (how did I come up with that lame nickname for it anyway??? long story! )

1. I really REALLY hate it when people lie to me.. Life's been goin on for me without knowing that I'm being laughed at.. hell.. I didn't know that I looked like a fool already! c'mon.. do you hate me that much??? then you should have just shoved it into my face idiot!

2. damn acads.. i badly need a break

3. ever had that feeling that your presence is only important if something is needed from you?

4. call me KSP but yeah... a KSP.. I am!

5. ambiguity sucks! I'm tired of trying to decode/decipher/discover what YOU really want... I've reached the saturation point.. that's it! I'm not taking any of your puzzles anymore

6. I give up.. I can't please everybody... hell.. not even myself.. hahah!

This might go on and on so I'm ending this now.. hahah.

The Theory about Love which I heard from the movie Sevigne was probably true.. I'll probably post it later.. meanwhile.. I'll end this with my 2 cents.. "Without expectations, there will be no disappointments either"

From now on, I'll never expect anything.. if something good happens.. then thank you Lord.

Oh by the way, after 3 months of rest... (acads.. and all that) tRANCE will perform at OZINEFEST 2007 come April 1! :) see yah there!

what else is new?

2007-02-02T08:33:00.000-08:00

I feel so neglected.. hahah! I'm too shy to post emo stuffs on my livejournal.. so I guess you'll be coming back to life my dear bloggie.. you'll be my official rantboard again from now on.. I just don't want people to feel that there's nothing good happening in my life (is there anyway?) Not that I'm abandoning my livejournal.. I'd still be posting there.. but not these kinds of stuff..

call me paranoid but I've been having really bad perceptions.. call it a woman's intuition or what.. but.. what the heck.. where am I getting at anyway?

It's just that I don't feel really special at all.. maybe what the actor said in his movie line was right.. "the very person that you love most is the easiest to take for granted".. call me KSP or what.. but all I wanted him to do is to show that he gives a damn... am I asking for too much?

The other side of the Coin

2007-01-20T09:23:00.000-08:00

It has been a while since I last posted an entry.. ack XD many things have happened and I don’t really know what to blog about anymore :D this thing will prolly turn into a rant board.. which I don’t wanna happen.. lol

Anyway.. In my old blog, whenever I don’t have anything to write about.. I do this:

Look for something then write about it :D sometimes, a bored person’s post is worth reading… SOMETIMES.

The law of Karma. Amen to that.

I used to tell him.. "there are things you have to find out for yourself",
"you should have figured it out by now",
"the answer is floating right in your face but you can't grasp it because you don't really want to see it"
"I'm waiting for you to ask about it, but then again, you're too proud to ask about it and too insensitive to feel it"

Then, he'd always tell me:
"Hindi ako manghuhula! Hindi lahat ng bagay nalalaman kung hindi sinasabi!"

I always.. ALWAYS speak in vague terms.. I used to think that a person will appreciate what he will learn when he finds it out for himself.. then again, I didn't know that I was being cruel.
Now, judging from what I am experiencing now... that was awfully hard.. I didn't know that being faced with that same conversation with me saying the other line would be so goddamn frustrating.

I didn't know. I guess they were right after all. You were misunderstood. And its quite unacceptable that I have to experience it first before I was able to understand. It makes my head ache just thinking that I realized it a little too late.

I'm Sorry.

while you were sleeping

2006-09-13T18:17:00.000-07:00

Last night was one of the weirdest but definitely an eye opener night for me... all it took for me to realize something is a sleepless night with no one to talk to and nothing else to do...

I sat down for a loooong time and stared at the wall (and the wall stared back too)... that's when I felt a wave of sadness rushing over me.. hahah.. I didn't know that I am a sad person overall; maybe too much work and other things I'm doing made me suppress all the feelings which will not help me in any way.. (i hate emo moments T_T)

now what's the catch here? I can't control it.. lonely moments like this one (since sisteena and bluesonnet are sleeping) make me sit back and feel sad.. which is why i decided to update my journal... to kill time..

i realized all the things i took for granted and the things i'm doing now.. i don't want to regret anything because I did everything in my own free will, which means no room for lame excuses.. --__--

but realizing something doesn't mean that I know what i'll be doing next... hahah.. in fact realization led to a chain of more confusions and confounding problems which i didn't recognize beforehand.. I guess i'll just wait and see.. who knows.. this might just be a passing frenzy state of a bored little lost girl.

in the meantime.. i'll just have to concentrate on something concrete... of something which is definitely sure to happen... l'arc event! must memorize songs.. i hope you guys are going! :) see yah there! :D

Ran the Procrastinator

2006-08-15T11:44:00.000-07:00

I am supposed to be typing the introduction, background of the study, significance of the study for our thesis at this moment.. but I've been staring at the computer for almost 3 hours now and I haven't typed anything yet.. (kill me now mama wena T-T , i'm a procrastinator.. ) come to think of it.. i have all the resources, books i borrowed from the library, photocopied stuffs, journals, unlimited internet connection plus a pc that I can hog all day.. :( but I don't know why I can't do it.. (geez I've been doing these kind of stuffs for the past semesters.. my brain hibernated.. damn)

Since I got home today, I've been thinking (so hard that my head ached) about stuffs that I've been doing these what.. past few weeks? My life's a total mess but I can't do anything about it.. I've been taking eveything in stride until I finally realized that I can't get out.. Finally, fate knocked some good sense into my head.. i'll have to rearrange everything and deal with it.. darn.. its hard to face reality when you're in front of it.

what's my purpose anyway? nah don't answer it.

I found a blog... accidentally.. and I read it for a good 1 hour.. hahah... but I was kinda disappointed coz I was actually looking for some sort of entry that will enlighten me but nada.. that person is so vain.. never talked about other people.. oh wells..

talked to one person in YM today.. I've been wanting to have a serious talk since time immemorial but he never gave it to me.. until now.. he never did.. he's still blaming me and other people for everything... you see.. i just wanted to straighten things out so that personal issues can finally rest...
when I asked him about an important thing and how he's feeling.. he said he doesn't know...
suddenly.. i felt like the most horrible creature that roamed this planet..
I feel bad..
he even left without saying goodbye..

I guess nobody will ever take me seriously..
so pathetic..

*lightbulb on*

GEE! now I know why I can't do anything right!

(chant these stuffs 100 times)

must put off personal issues, be on zombie mode.. then write thesis stuffs..

must not feel anything..

*done*

so easy... right? : )

DAMN! who am I kidding??

I need a break! I seriously seriously need a friggin break!

or else i'll break.. :(

"Life moves very fast ; it rushes us from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds..."

Bitterness once again

2006-07-16T11:30:00.000-07:00

Hi guys! I'm back from the grave… I became too engrossed in my Livejournal Account… However, I realized that there are some things I can't post there anymore…  sad..

Let me quote this thing once again: I found this while I was in total darkness… and then *poof* some things just dawned on me...

What is unconditional love?
It may be sheer delight for martyrdom coupled with utter stupidity, breaks the boundaries of all logical reasons and trespasses the Alcatraz of prejudice and reasons. It transcends any moral and erudite definition of love and sacrifice. Perhaps it may be a growing obsession to pain… Otherwise, it could be just plain foolishness…

Why can't I decide?

How do I know what's right from wrong?

Am I even making sense here?

How will I know what's going to make me happy?

What if I made the wrong move and then I can't go back???

So many questions… Yet I guess I won't have the answers…

RAN = RANts

2006-05-19T08:17:00.000-07:00

I was born to RANt!!! hahah! okay... corny....

That was one helluva week... with all that work and everything. I was just sad that some of my blockmate's OJT days are almost over... for them anyway.. this is their last day! While me... it seemed like I was just starting; ahahah come to think of it... my work will continue till the next semester starts.. and I'm going to be paid for it! however.. my body and mind craves for something... something they have been deprived in such a long while.. REST! I've always wanted to file for a leave of absence.. just one sem.. *laughs* but that's not possible.. :D

Good thing ma'am mateo extended the deadline till monday.. i can finally breathe.. but my SPSS (statistical software) is missing!!!! I have to buy another one... what great luck...

Too bad for me... Anyways.. I've always hated CRS!!!! dang.. Since time immemmorial I never got the classes I wanted.. -______-;; CRS hates me too!! :(( you see... my schedule for the next sem is sooo... sooo.. I don't even want to talk about it... *cries*

As if that wasn't enough.. I'm in bitter mode forever.. yet nobody seemed to care.. I wanted to have someone I could talk to.. yet no one came to my rescue.. you know... It's hard enough for me to open up... but some people never bothered to take some time off their busy schedules, or take a break from what they were doing.. I'm not demanding or something... but I just wanted someone who will listen... you know... you don't have to emphatize or understand me... I don't even need any advices coz I'm too stubborn to follow it anyway... just listen... or just pretend that you do... demmet!

To divert my attention for a while from work... I got into this interesting hobby.. avatar making!! ahahah! and I made one for each day just to represent what I'm feeling.. In fact, each one has it's own story... so next time you log in to yahoo messenger.. check out what avvie I'm using to know my mood.. hahah! :)

Monday.. The original me... bunny girl/pinkie/genki mode.. that was me at the start of this week! :D well duh.. i had no idea of what's in store for me!! :D

Tuesday.. Hair is getting darker... horns... well.. they're showing coz I'm getting grumpy.. but I'm still trying to keep my cool.. so there.. she's cool huh? ^^

Wednesday... so much work... one person tried to pick a fight with me.. I'm getting really really depressed and bitter.. I'M HOLDING OUT FOR A HERO!! *sings* kidding! yeah.. sorta like that... say.. the avvie was patterned after Li Syaoran.. i love the guy! hahah! I wanted him to have black wings... but oh well.. not very heroic looking. ^_^

Thursday... you see... nobody came to my rescue... so there... darker pink hair.. complete transformation... horns got longer... the face was err.. not too nice looking.. the trident.. ready to poke at any one who tries to piss me off.. Actually.. i was very very frustrated and in danger of being pissed off easily.. still.. no one wanted to listen to me..

Friday.. the latest.. well I tried to solve the problem.. and it seems that fate is finally giving me a chance.. my prof decided to give me another chance.. so there.. I can finally see light at the end of the tunnel.. (well a little though) and so there.. another complete transformation... blue... because for me the color has a calming effect.. so peaceful...

Yeah.. so there you have it! ^_^ cute stuffs right? *crosses fingers*

RANdom stuff... :D

2006-05-16T12:12:00.000-07:00

1. When you looked at yourself in the
mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Ahahah... anlaki ng eyebags ko.. amf

2. How much cash do you have on you?
2k na lang... ang gastos ko kasi.. >_<

3. What's a word that rhymes
with "DOOR?"
eng... core? >_< pwede na yun! yun unang pumasok sa isip ko.. hahah!

4. Favorite planet?
earth. kasi nandito akish..

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed
call list on your mobile?
sa isang fone ko.. si patchie... dun naman sa isa pa.. si Joycee! ^_^

6. What was 4th text message?
4th text message? ahm..from meowmeow anong apelyido ni beast? .....eh di kwit! hahah!

7. What shirt are you wearing?
a green shirt na may cute bunny.. XD

8. Do you "label" yourself as anything?
Yeah.. nocturnal creature...

9. Name the brand of shoes you're
currently wearing?
slippers.. bunny slippers... :D No label ! hahah!

10. Bright or Dark room?
Dark.. :D

11. What do you think about the person
who took this survey before you?
ndi kasi kami masyadong close XD

13. What were you doing at midnight last
night?
Infront of the computer... downloading gakuen alice series.. saka chat! >_<

14. What did your last text message you
received on your mobile say?
from long lost brother X... matulog na daw ako! ^^

15. Where is your mailbox?
uhmm... front?

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
adeek ka talaga!

o kaya naman..

tae talaga! >_<

17 where are you?
my dad's office... :D

19. How many drugs have you done in
the last three days?
isa lang... robitussin... hahah!

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
18... waaaah!

22. Your worst enemy?
myself.. :D

23. Current thing on your desktop?
naruto... weee!

24. What was the last thing you said to
someone?
hhhmm... as of now la pa.. may kausap pa ko eh :p

25. If you had to choose between a
million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
definitely a million bucks... duh...

26. Do you like someone?
of course!

27. The last song you listened to?
over the clouds.. compo ni dawnie... yikeee!~ ^_^

28. If the last person you spoke to was
getting shot at, would you jump in front of the
bullet.
Uhmm.. i dunno... dpende.. :D

29.If you could punch 1 person in your
life right now, who would it be?
ah.. syempre di ko sasabihin dito noh.. baka mabasa nya.. :D

30. What is the closest object to your left
foot?
uhm.... my slippers..

31.who's the last person you touched?
touched? my little brother! hahah! >_<

More Rants

2006-05-16T09:50:00.000-07:00

yeah... back from the grave! hahah

I have a new Livejournal account... it's at Click me so anyone of you who has an LJ account.. please add me up! thankies! :D It would be a nonformal rant board of mine... meaning... it's going to be in Tagalog.. yay! ^_^;;

IDIOT

2006-05-08T04:51:00.000-07:00

something i should have done last week but I didn't.. now I'm in a really deep deep shit... could even affect my OJT grades... I was so set to do that thing but other things got in the way.. now i don't know what to do anymore... I'm having a paranoia attack..

maybe I should start setting my priorities? sheesh... i need help! i need psychiatric help! seriously....

I want to cry... i want to cry until my eyes pop out..

Ryoma Echizen Blues

2006-05-07T08:22:00.000-07:00

Okei.. here I am again... drooling over Hongo Kanata... the one who played Ryoma Echizen for Prince of Tennis Live Action... Waaaahhh... i want to meet him personally!!! *drools some more*

Splash aftermath, thanks and rants

2006-05-06T23:30:00.000-07:00

Hero's splash island event was a blast.. there was one catch though.. we haven't practiced any song for that particular event and we actually thought of backing out before our performance, but we couldn't. It was a crazy act but I had fun and it was actually okay more than what I have expected.

Performing with Do`ahou again was a blast too! it would be a very long time, i think... before we could see each other's faces again so I think I'm gonna miss their craziness and antics.. ^_^

Oh and before I forget.. I want to REALLY REALLY thank Pedz of Himitsu Heiki!! for giving me that hero T-shirt! (yeah, I'm not that bitter anymore because of that! ^_^) and for sparing his precious time to get me and my sissy home safely! waaah! i will forever be indebted to you! ^^ bleh!

you know the drill.. videos and photos to be uploaded soon. *peace sign*

I am currently doing my job for a content analysis thingie for Ma'am Mateo... I am also excited this coming monday since me, mama wena and joycee are coming to that company to resign.. (well.. is it the right word?) hahaha! finally! i can sleep peacefully... I dunno why it took me a long time to figure out that I am actually killing myself with all that hard work.. >_< but it's not too late baby! waaaahhh!!! ^_^

they were right.. I am currently too young to burden myself with such works.. i need to unwind and enjoy more.. savor the.... err what? I forgot..
I AM IN BITTER MODE!

*slumps shoulders*

Ran... you're such a fool..........

you're an idiot.........

you are good for nothing.........

you're wasting my time...........

you are a flirt.................

you look like a b**ch...........

YEAH... maybe I am after all... but i'm nothing like a flirt or a bitch.. that's for sure! i shoudn't waste my time talking to idiots who think I'm nothing more than that last two statements..

mind this:

you are in no position to judge me just by whatever it is you're seeing coz you don't know me!

I don't wanna waste this precious space anymore... I think I've said enough.. anyway.. I'm sure that whatever it is i'm going to say won't matter anymore.. they wouldn't listen...

a product of their own bitterness or jealousy?

I wouldn't know...

such fools...

such idiots...

nothing like me...

bleh!

"Revenge is best served cold!"

Drool Mode

2006-05-06T11:01:00.000-07:00

from my past posts... you probably have an idea that I am head over heels in love with ryoma echizen (prince of tennis) and dreamt of seeing someone which looks like him... I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS! PRINCE OF TENNIS THE MOVIE! and they all look like the characters! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! I WANT TO WATCH IT... I WILL DIE FOR IT! i will do everythin in my power to meet that kid!!!! kiddin... but yeah i sorta feel somethin like that! *fangirl mode*

i'm so sorry for the randomness.. but here's the trailer i saw.. ^-^

*SCREAMS*

prince of tennis movie trailer

updates

2006-04-30T06:33:00.000-07:00

i haven't posted in a while because i was so fucking busy... (notice the harsh word) I haven't had real time for myself.. and if I did.. it ends soon enough like it was only a split second. Let me give a few recaps regarding my whole week:

1. Hero TV recording and music video making - a new experience and something cool too ayt? Let me tell you this.. I'm proud and happy but also dead tired at the same time.. i think i told you before that the call time was at 3am.. well yeah.. 3am is my bedtime.. as expected, i didn't get any sleep at all.. i couldn't sing well enough and i wasn't happy with the result.. >_< add to that... I experienced a VERY VERY sharp migraine during the afternoon.. as it turned out.. while Neil was recording all the guitar thingies for our music.. i was fast asleep... on the floor.. and when I woke up.. my headache hadn't changed at all.. add to that, X the drummer got my picture while sleeping.. it looked like something you could post at a porn website.. thanks a lot! >_< oh wells...

i realized i couldn't go home alone because of the stupid migraine thing.. but i knew i had to.. no one can accompany me back home.. it was so scary.. while going home.. i couldn't see the road.. i was almost hit by a car.. damn.. >_<

Music video? fun! i love taking pictures of myself but i realized that I am still camera-shy after all.. i couldn't move.. hahah they couldn't get any emotions from me >_< maybe it was because of the hot lighting and several cameras.. or the stress.... i'm not for showbiz after all.. hahah! sir eric kept on calling me jessica jones, jonita jones, and in the end.. angelica jones! i don't look like her at all.. waaahhh!

maybe the music video will turn out funny.. :p as for the interview... i found myself saying all sorts of stuffs which doesn't make any sense at all.. gracious.. hahah!

2. The double internship thing - i was accepted at hmmm... a survey company.. i don't wanna divulge because some people can actually reach my blog if they searched for the company name. The experience was... HORRIFYING. yeah.. that wasn't really the exact word but that was an understatement for me.. first.. commuting was really hard.. at least 3 hours everyday.. pocket strain and emotionally draining.. the environment wasn't good also.. it brought about a certain health decline for me.. asthma attacks.. sharp migraine attacks everyday.. add to that.. the office looked like a certain dungeon for me.. some employees were kind... but others? they were !@#$%#$@@#$$#@@#$##$%!%#%^& - got the point? i don't wanna go back anymore.. actually my dad told me to stop going there... he couldn't entertain the idea of me going there everyday... yeah my sister told my parents everything..

i should have been contented with mam mateo.. wah! she's so kind.. >_<

3. Ongaku Project:Old School New school
with my health declining, too much work, and severe cough.. i couldn't concentrate on practices.. in fact.. i'm still memorizing the songs on the very same day of the gig.. sheesh.. add to that.. i forgot some of the lyrics while singing.. i'm so sorry... *cries* i've done everything i could.. although some people congratulated and told me that the performance was great and astounding... i couldn't get over it.. good thing that my microphone was not loud and the lyrics that i forgot were those with ann and nice.. i guess that my faults were unnoticed after all... i'll post some videos after i've uploaded everything

all the bands were great! ermm.. especially the very person that i'm stalking.. >_< hahah! the venue was hot.. had another migraine attack... my cough got worse.. i'm sort of claustrophobic so it was a bad thinga.. what else? ah! i was expecting certain people but they never came.. especially meowmeow.. i kept looking everywhere hoping that he decided to suprise me and came after all.. but he was never that type of person... i kept looking at some guy because it looked like him but i ended up embarassed because the guy noticed.. it wasn't him.. >_<

4. TS Online
I became addicted to this online game in such a short while.. it was something different.. PS RPG Style.. well almost.. summons... wah! i loved it! uhm.. i'm not so sure where to buy its load though.. help! my username? YurikaMisumaru.. an orange haired fellow.. hahah! I can lend you my installer if you want to try it! just leave a message in my tagboard!

5. Current Health
bad.. very bad... bleeding (literally) for 3 weeks already because of over low blood.. bruises kept popping anywhere.. all day migraine attacks.. slight insomnia.. blurring vision.. am i still normal??? I need to go and see a doctor immediately.. i'm paranoid already...

uhm.. i guess that my post became too long.. i'll try to update again next time...

jitters and rants

2006-04-20T03:55:00.000-07:00

i was wondering why my blog meter visitor count suddenly rose up.. and when i checked it.. i realized that it was because of the naruto thingie that i did...my link was posted in a naruto site.. thanks for that! ^-^

pre-recording jitters... we're having a recording/video session for hero tv along with the other bands.. and it makes me nervous since the call time is at 3 am... which is... my bedtime! and my voice will probably falter because hello??! wee hours of the morning... (somebody told me that my voice sounds like a croaky grandma froggy at wee hrs of the morning) oh well... wish us luck! ^_^

currently not in the mood to memorize the songs for the ongaku session... When we practiced today.. i was the only one who managed to sing out of tune most of the time... probably because i was sooo dang tired. I hope i'll get out of this mess soon enough... performance slated for next week... wah!!! i need to pick up the pieces!!!

as if that wasn't enough... we'll still have to practice for the may 5 event of hero in splash island... waaahh! vacation... where art thou? can i eat you?

currently suffering because of my own stupidity... i chose to have a double internship this summer because i couldn't get by without doing anything.. hahah! special request from some stupid girl like me... >_< nonetheless i love the experience i'm getting from it! masochist! >_<

i don't want to rant anymore... coz i'm the one who imposed these stuffs to myself anyway... :D

Easter Sunday Rants -Tale of a Kitty

2006-04-16T07:37:00.000-07:00

Once upon this very lovely day.. my stupid big brother stepped on my kitty upon entering my room.. alas! since the kitty was so small.. it cried and cried... it was suddenly paralyzed... her eyes half closed, and the mouth was open...

she was gasping for air.. and was already pooping her way to death...

I couldn't look at her...

so i ran and cried... (i'm not exaggerating... i love my lil kitten!)

my 2 brothers and sister were crying too... (we love the kitten!) my brother was yelling these exact words over and over while wailing.. "what have i done kitty? i'm so bad! i can't forgive myself!")

i thought my dearest kitty died already... and then suddenly.. she sprang back to life!

I couldn't believe what happened... in fact, her tummy became smaller already and became thinner in such a shot while.. how come?

i refused to believe it until i was able to hug her again and she on the other hand purred...

my dearest kitty... alive again...

if you've just seen her before that... she was as good as dead...

I declared it as an easter sunday miracle!

I love you Lord!

Happy Easter Everyone!

And no I'm not kidding.. this story really happened today....

I went to my dermatologist today for a facial cleaning session... and yeah... it really hurts.. my face is all red and swollen... >_<

vain vain vain... but i really couldn't bear to see my face like that anymore.. and so i had to go under such drastic measures... and after everything that happened... stress.. my kitty... i think i deserved it anyway... heheh so much for rants.. i'll post our gig details sometime... ^_^ thanks for reading!

naruto digital art

2006-04-15T06:55:00.000-07:00

I'm done with my 2 naruto wallpaper thingie... i did the artwork myself... oh yeah, i think i mentioned already that it is supposed to be a grown up version of naruto.. ^_^ i made the lineart on my drawing pad, scanned it, then colored it with ULEAD photo express... the background was done from adobe photoshop.. :D you can visit my DA gallery where it is posted:

http://sorceressran.deviantart.com

I am currently chatting with anne.. my fellow trance member... and she gave me a list of gig lineups... which i thought were too many for me to handle.. considering that i'm planning a double internship this summer... i'll post the details soon enough! byebye for now! ^_^

Some things?

2006-04-14T09:23:00.000-07:00

currently doing two digital naruto artwork... well it's actually some futile attemot of mine to make naruto older... >_< heheh in case you guys don't know... i am actually obsessed over naruto... (the character)... weird right? just when everybody's drooling over sasuke, i on the other hand is starry eyed over naruto the adorable fellow :D

errr.. right... speaking of insan obsessions... I am currently drooling over the song BLAZE from Tsubasa Chronicles and its singer... Kotani Kinya >_< the song really makes my knees wobble... i love it! i wish somebody can sing like kinya... *drool* i'd be too happy to bearhug and glomp someone who'll be able to give justice to the song!!! hahah! although... i'd be the first one to hang them upside down in case they didn't.. heheh

Kinya is also the singing voice of Shuichi from gravitation... i love him coz he's full of emotion when he sings... great voice too! here are some of his pics: ^_^

and here are my pics... with the new hair color... which is actually louder in actuality! hahah!

err... yeah! that's it for now.. :D

Some random stuffs

2006-04-13T10:21:00.000-07:00

currently stuck with reading fanfictions as of now... so far... three of them really made me cry.. hahah! gah! damn... those authors surely were good...

titles? well... one is called "jagged ambers" , two is entitled "haunted" and three "a black rose" .... the third one was something that really got into me... errr.. the fic tackled angst as against incest.. it was really a dark fic and it certainly haunted me for days. I'm telling yah, you should go read it.. i wish i have that kind of talent for angsty stuffs.. hahah! >_<

call me crazy but i think my hair color gets louder each day.. >_< i totally forgot that the brand that was used on my hair was a japan-made one... connection? well duh, they want their hair color as loud as possible... certainly the first thing that will come to your mind when you see me would be... CORN! gee! talk about a certain past with corns...

wanna hear about it?

i dressed up as a corn during our s-day period... hahah! mind you, it was in front of jollibee philcoa.. and we're all dancing like crazy people.. waving at every vehicle that passes by... makes me feel embarassed up to now... but i could proudly say that I was once a very good laughing stock! hahah!

that's about it.. i'd probably post a chronicle thingie here.. coz i'm currently bitter... i really really need to spill it out.. (well i'll secretly pray that he'll stumble upon this blog so that he'll finally discover what i had kept as a burden for like 4 years already... i can't move on... )

i'd probably post this thing over and over again:

I did all my best to catch up to you...

Which of course wasn't possible at all.

No matter how hard I ran....

You were always miles ahead.

No matter how far I reached out my hand...

All I ever grasped was air.

The distance between us kept growing and growing..

And I can feel everything falling apart.

random rants

2006-04-12T07:50:00.000-07:00

Found myself in another deep pile of dung.. hah!

That same piece of shit will be the end of my life.period.

Sunday: just came from a VERY tiresome trip... i never slept until 2:30 am came because I had to go to school at 6:00 am (took a bus at 4:00 am, the trip took about 2 hrs) I was disappointed upon arriving at school because apparently, the line already started at 6pm the other day (talk about addicts)... and as expected... i never got what I wanted... STUPID!

Well... i was very bitter because EON corporate communications, IBON foundation and others accepted us (wena and cams) as interns... but ma'am Umali told us that we cannot move from where we were originally enlisted (i was supposed to Ma'am Mateo's intern---UP admin office.) She was pissed off and told us to blame some 10 students who ruined everything.. hah!

to those 10 students... may all misfortunes come your way.. >_< (bitter mode on)

anyway.. she suggested that we take double internship instead... gah! double??? how the hell am i going to do that?

well... being stupid and idiotic as i am... i took the challenge.. hah! i'll just hope that ma'am mateo will agree.. >_< coz it's all up to her... if she does... we're going to apply at SWS... ^_^ weeee! i'll be a zombie again for a couple of months if that happens. ^^

I'm currently not in the mood to study all the songs that we're supposed to sing come april 29... all i did was surf the net, download and read fanfics... YAOI fanfics for that matter! ahahahah!

and I'm currently THANKING my MOMMY again for giving in to our demands... hahaha! a new HP All in one printer! a printer/scanner/photocopier all in one... I wonder what got into her? >_< for that... more artworks to be uploaded!!!! *evil laugh*

but i was the one who bought the card reader... wah... 1000php worth of my money..

>_< apparently.. the usb cable of my digicam was lost.. and i needed the friggin digicam so i had to buy a card reader!!! waaaahhhh!

err yeah... congratulations to meowmeow for making the scholar's list... woah! 11000 for a kickback? not bad! hahah! although when i asked for a kickback too.. he told me... "a kick in the back maybe?" waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

and since i'm in bitter mode for like forever... i colored my hair once again!!! hahahah!!! and it's too damn loud i'm telling yah! :p I'll post a pic soon enough!!

till then... tata for now!

Stuffs

2006-04-09T07:52:00.000-07:00

finally updated my artworks.. gah! heheh how could I.. when there are more important things to do first? >_<

and i'm finally getting the hang of being a DA subscriber.. >_<

anyway... I'm currently busy practicing and memorizing all the songs for ongaku fest this coming april 29.. wah! 5 songs all and all... too bad for me.. coz i'm still brain dead..

by the way.. here are the details.. hope some of you could come!

Ongaku Project: Old School, New School

With Live Performances by:
NEOtaku, PROGENY, Yaoi Senshi Mantoman,
Do 'Ahou, 0% Off, and tRANCE

Featuring Up-and-Coming Acts:
Himitsu Heiki, New Fallen Snow, YumBuh!,
Ethereal Anthem, Paradoxical Review, and Shake Well Before Using

Plus Cosplay, Auctions, and Freebies!

April 29, 2006 / 5:00 PM / Harmony Bar
Annapolis Street, Greenhills, San Juan
Tix at Php 120 @ and comes with a beer!

i came from the tRANCE group.. heheh and I'm going as Lili from Tekken 5.. no use hiding it anyways right? >_< we're going to sing 2 songs from yakitate japan... and the others? well... *smiles*

wah! enrollment for my internship tomorrow... i was supposed to contact hero tv but apparently.. i forgot! *cries* oh well....

Now what?

2006-04-06T08:29:00.000-07:00

I don't really know..

better pick up the pieces or else...

or else what?

Nah.. just having a bad time... just thought I had to get some sleep but I couldn't.. wished I had more time but I can't afford to...

I never looked at myself in the mirror in the same way again... the dark circles around my eyes made all the difference.. hahah! looking at it in a sociological perspective... dark circles for me meant having no social life.. >_<

what else?

ah! travelled for three hours last wednesday just to find out that I had nothing to do there after all.. but i'm not bitter..

because of that, i immediately went shopping and bought a pair of red high-heeled shoes which I thought was off coz i never had any dress to fit that.. hahah! what a waste of money.. and i was thinking... last week.. i bought 3 pairs of shoes...

what is up with me and shoes? i dunno.. one thing's for sure... i'm getting obsessed...

just wanna thank my mom.. coz she bought a new PC for us on the spot.. never thought she would actually give in... >_< and apparently.. i also won a free 1 week deviantart subscription, never thought it would actually make my day since i was trying to find out how subscribing works before i actually subscribe and pay... >_<

was banned from gendou... thanks a lot!

uhm... i would like to take this opportunity to say sorry to those people who actually waited for me.. for which I never came... who waited for my reply.. but found no message from me at all... i dunno what's happening to me lately.. can't figure it out myself..

maybe i just needed space.. that's all

bitter mode on

2006-04-06T08:25:00.000-07:00

I did all my best to catch up to you. Which of course wasn't possible at all. No matter how hard I ran, you were always miles ahead. No matter how far I reached out my hand, all I ever grasped was air. The distance between us kept growing and growing..

Genzo's Mad Love

2006-04-03T21:55:00.000-07:00

last one for now!!! I SWEAR!!! hahah! I love Genzo Souga!!! >_< okay.. he's ugly but whadaheck? he's simply adorable :D

Seeing Red

2006-04-03T07:45:00.000-07:00

okay.. another cheeky angel video!!! hahah! I will bombard you with cheeky angel stuffs!!!!

Tenshi na Konamaiki

2006-04-02T21:32:00.000-07:00

currently in love with this anime! ahahah!

Some stuffs

2006-04-02T10:24:00.000-07:00

.Color of most clothes you own:
~ PINK

2.Number of pillows you sleep with?
~ I need three

3.What room are you in right now?
~ my dad's office

4.What were you doing 12AM last night?
~ surfing the net

5.How old will you be in 10 years?
~ 29

6.What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?
~ uh.. i'm not sure.. ^^

7.Do you have braces?
~ nope..

8.Are you paranoid?
~ most of the time!

9.Describe your wallet?
~ big.. uh.. lost of pictures inside.. 2 IDS, no money inside.. ahaha!

10.Your alarm clock?
~ my phone..

11.Your hair?
~ brown.. my mom intends to have it colored by next week.. XD

12.Tooth brush?
~ pink!

13.What color are your eyes?
~ dark brown..

14.First enemy?
~ i'm not sure...

15.First play/musical/performance?
~ my first piano recital.. i was at kindergarten level

16.Last movie seen in cinema?:
~ Brokeback Mountain.. for my film class

17.Last person you yelled at?
~ my lil bro.. for messing up my room, for scattering all my wigs.. and uh.. marbles around.. with the biidaman thingie

18.Last crush?
~ crush? errr.. ahahah! its a secret! :p

19.Last shoes worn?
~ black boots

20.Last ice cream eaten?
~ strawberry flavored ice cream

21.Last thing written by hand?
~ answers for the content analysis forms

22.Last time wanting to die?
~ while doing commres 165 along with other subjects

23. When was the last time went out @ night?
~ last wednesday, we had a practice with do ahou from 9-11 pm

24. What were you doing last night?
~ uh, surfing the net?

25. Why do you like yourself?
~ coz I'm a narcissistic person san
.
26. What are your plans for tomorrow?
~ go to the parlor, have my hair colored then watch a movie with my sister

27. What was the last thing you won?
~ I forgot.. was it the best debater? i dunno

28. When was the last time you got angry?
~ 5 hours ago

29. What was the last song you heard?
~ uhm.. kokoro biidama by rythem.. hahah!

30. When was the last time you entered a club?
~ 1 year ago..

31. what is it about the opposite sex(physically)
that gets you?
~ weird.. uh.. feet.. hands.. errr.. weird talaga :D smile pwede na rin.. minsan

32. what are the three things that you cannot live
without everyday? (besides oxygen and
water)
~ sweets, phone and my basic kikay kit

33. current music that's playing?
~ kokoro biidama (playing for about 10 times already.. hey, i'm trying to memorize the song!)

34. can you list three things that are taking up
space on your table?
~ laptop, papers, telephone

35. What do you want to do now?
~ eat.. >_<

36. what's the colour of your room?
~ pink!

37. what's the first thing you ate this morning?
~ uh.. bananas, coz I woke up late

38. what shampoo do you use?
~ i don't use the same shampoo everyday.. will make my hair sticky or dry

39. how many people do you have on your
MSN/Yahoo! Messenger friends list?
~ lots of em

40. what's that one music album you never got
over?
~ none in particular

41.favourite day of the week? why?
~ wednesday..coz that's my day-off!

42. did you do anything stupid in the past 24
hours?
~ none that I can think of..

43. did anything useful in the past hour?
~ did a write up for the road safety tables..

43. what's your MSN/Yahoo! id right now?
~ sorceress_ran

44. if you could change your name,what would it
be?
~ nada... i like it the way it is

45. play any musical instruments?
~ piano..

46. favourite letter/s of the alphabet?
~ R.. duh!

47. are you absolutely obvious to your crush?
~ nope, coz i treat everyone the same

48. Gwen Stefani or Ashlee Simpson?
~ none..

49. Do you have any quotes that you live
by?
~ knowing someone doesn't mean keeping them. people change. a person may like pineapple today and something else tomorrow..

50. what do you think about these questions?
~ tiresome! shockingness! 50 questions all in all???

Thoughts in the Middle of the Night

2006-04-02T08:34:00.000-07:00

Thought no. 1:
"Knowing someone doesn't mean keeping them. People change. A person may like pineapple today and something else tomorrow" - Chungking Express

that was one helluva quote.. hahah! Chungking express became my instant favorite after we've watched it in our film class.. i really loved cop no. 1 and tony leung.. plus faye wong of course! now that I can't get over it, i want a copy!!!!

change is the only constant thing in this world.. and i can't deny the fact that i'm a very fickle minded person. however, I'm not that sort of person who doesn't think first before saying or doing something. That's my one main weakness, I always pretend i'LL stick to one sort of thing even if I already knew that doing so would result to something disastrous.

I am currently bitter over this one person... my friend for what? 3-4 years already? who doesn't seem to care if I'm still breathing or not.. hello? what happened?

Thought no. 2

currently under pressure to memorize all 5 songs.. plus we're still in danger of memorizing another 4 for this month if this event pushes through..

anyway.. I'm going as lili from tekken 5 for the ongaku fest thingie.. but where can i buy a footwear which is similar to hers? argh!

Thought no. 3

received half of my salary already.. I've finished content analyzing 200 websites.. but I have only encoded 104 websites so far... gah! more review of related literatures are still needed... (vacation!!! where are you??? can i eat you?)

Thought no. 4

my body clock adjusted already.. I can't sleep early even if I wanted to.. now I'm stuck with this laptop in the wee hours of the morning.. now i'm a "nocturnal person-san"

Thought no. 5

I have to update my fanfic.. but I forgot my story already... which is bad... *laughs*

I NEED TO DRAW!!!!! but my brother murdered my art materials... *laughs again*

Thought no. 6

I'm currently doing an analysis for the tables of specific road safety practices.. but I have no idea about the framework.. now what shall i do? >_<

Thought no. 7

I don't want to think anymore.........

Review of Brokeback Mountain

2006-04-02T07:41:00.000-07:00

hey, i was just glad that I got a 1.25 grade for my film class for this one.. I just thought that my professor was so OC about film reviews (i thought this was going to be oh so low..) but apparently... it turned out okay.. (although she hated the way that it was too formalist in style.. she said that I was lacking in terms of personal reflections.. so there!)

Errr yeah... I used the Ideological Perspective for this one ^_^ just thought it was fitting to do so ^_^

The movie started as two cowboys, Jack Twist (Jake Gyllenhaal) and Ennis Del Mar (Heath Ledger), met when they were hired as sheepherders on Brokeback Mountain, Wyoming during summer of 1963. At first, Ennis was the silent one, thus, the film started with a lot a dead air between the two of them, concentrating mostly with the sceneries and what they were doing. Eventually they became at ease with each other, and became friends, until finally, they crossed the boundaries of friendship and became sexually attracted, consequently becoming lovers in the process. After parting, the two lived their own lives, including getting married in the process, until Jack decided to renew their relationship through sending a postcard. The story happened in a span of 20 years, with Ennis' daughter as the reference point for time, since everything that happened shows them as they grew up. Apparently, putting sideburns for Ennis' character and a moustache for Jack to show them as older persons wasn't a good help at all.

Starting with the film's aesthetic qualities, it exhibited a vivid color of green, which was very apparent in most of the film's scenes. The movie boasts of a breathtaking mise-en-scene and cinematography through emphasizing the great sceneries most of the time by using extreme long shots focusing on the mountain and the sky; characters were barely visible and good perspective relations were also emphasized between the sky and road using horizon. The film used slightly canted frames and low angle shots were shown always if the two of them were riding their horses while going up a hill. Close up shots were used during a serious talk between the two men to emphasize their emotions. During the night, there were two techniques, which were used alternatively, one was a red lighting to indicate the presence of fire, and another one was a slight lighting during the night time, thus it wasn't dark as it was supposed to be and the whole scene can still be visibly seen. The actors were both convincing as homosexuals which still portrays a "macho" image outside, in fact, I wouldn't think of them as gays until both of them show their affection for each other. Some forms of nudity and sex were shown in the entire film but were still tolerable for me as a viewer because they were short.

Background sounds give a sense of western films but were slightly modified to give a more melodramatic type of background sound. Ennis' accent was that of a Texan cowboy, and because of that, some dialogues often come out as murmurs and hard to comprehend. In editing, establishing shots of the scenes were shown first to give a sense of where the setting is, an example would be a focus on the sky first, then the mountain and then followed by an extreme long shot of the whole scenery. Some graphic match was also used as a transition from one scene to another. Discontinuity editing technique was the most apparent technique used. Examples would be the violation of the 180o perspective when the two of them were talking, jump shots from one scene to another in a different time were apparent, and crosscutting to show the real cause of Jack's death. It wasn't really disorienting at all because the film managed to come up with certain cues to give the audience an idea, like a shot of them being side by side first before violating the 180o perspective, Ennis' daughters growing up as time cues, and a narration of Jack's wife of what she knows versus the real reason of Jack's death.

The film focused on the relationship between the two men, thus, some scenes which was shown was never elaborated any further, giving me the hanging feeling of everything unresolved at the end of the film, plus the fact that the movie was an open ended one.

The movie is controversial in the sense that it tackles gender issues and the relationship between two homosexuals in particular, and how society's conventions prevented them from being together. Two differing traits of homosexuals were presented in the movie. Jack as the willing one, one who was ready to give up everything, including his married life to live with Ennis, together with his own parents. Ennis was the introvert, the one who opted to conform to the society's rules, because he was afraid of the social stigma they would receive; he was well aware that the society wouldn't accept two men living together. Until now, relationship between people of the same sex is not as readily accepted in other countries, in that instant, I knew that the film was going to be reflective on their conflicting values and beliefs.

It is ironic that cowboys were used as the representatives for homosexuals, since we are well aware that cowboys, especially in western movies, were the perfect representation for a machismo image. Still, expectations were not entirely cheated because their gender orientation seemed vague. Both men still give the impression that they also prefer women as what happened when both got married, attraction for their spouses were apparent also, with Ennis having a relationship with another woman after getting a divorce. But of course, that didn't stop them from seeing each other in Brokeback mountain, which was a special place for both of them and which for me was a symbol of unrealized dreams for the both men. The scene when Jack's father, being anti-homosexual, refused to give Ennis the ashes of Jack to be spread to Brokeback mountain as his last wish, was very reflective of the fact that until the end, everything did not work out well for them.

The society also does not approve of infidelity, and it brought about the divorce between Ennis and his wife. And because of that, many years of his life was wasted as he was struggling to support his daughter, and in the process, failed to see them grow up. The movie also showed the different dynamics of a family, each with a difficult and not ideal situation. An example was the relationship between Jack and his father-in-law; with him being difficult to get along with. Jack's wife was also the exact opposite of the ideal wife of the society, being the daughter of a rich man, the responsibility of their family business fell into her hands, thus, the unsatisfying life that their family was leading was probably the reason why Jack broke his silence and decided to contact Ennis again. For that same reason also, he became cold against his wife.

Although the movie's narrative was all about a social taboo, how two men fell in love with each other, the whole movie was still supportive of the society's values. Expectations about certain things were met; like a man being unfaithful to his wife will bring about a broken family. The film also showed how unaccepted the relationship between two men were; how their employer never hired them again, how Jack's father hated homosexuals, and how Ennis' life was shown.

The miserable life that they led, and the unhappy ending of their relationship was indicative that homosexuals could never be too happy in a kind of society where social stigma can be strong.

I dunno...

2006-04-01T08:43:00.000-08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I know that I've neglected you and I haven't posted for about 48

years now. It's just that I was very busy and I was thinking of

committing hara-kiri already! but of course I couldn't slit myself

rectangle style, they might just chop off my head instead..

ahahaha! You See? I wasn't even in the right frame of mind!

Okie.. enough of morbid stuffs..

Let me give you brief background on how I am doing now:

1. I haven't slept enough for almost a month, If I was lucky

enough, I'd get 2-3 hrs of sleep per day

2. I looked like a zombie

3. I'm brain dead

4. I am SO agitated everyday I'd scream anytime, anywhere

5. Crying was my only way of releasing everything! worse, my

blockmates already dubbed me as a crybaby

6. Osteoporosis is on the way for carrying a laptop anytime

anywhere. worse, it might break down anytime soon

7. Meowmeow said that I need a miracle in order to finish

everything! yeah I guess so.. I'm not superwoman (I realized

finally.lolz)

I wouldn't want to disclose other stuffs, but yeah, I guess this

is the time where a person's true color is bound to be revealed,

and I hate those people! Even if they do realize what they had

just said and apologized, I still don't think I'd look at them the

same way again. Just as Sir Varona had said, or at least what I

had remembered: "You can't take back the words you said". What's

done is done! I'm really sorry, I might not treat any of them in

the same way again.

Just wanna thank ma'am Pernia for treating us all (15 of us) with

a cup of coffee and some foods at Seattle's Best just to discuss

the presentation, that was so touching! XD Although we're aware

that she has lots of money to spare, still, that was something a

normal professor wouldn't do! ^_^;;

ABOUT OUR PUBLIC PRESENTATION

Quotes:

See? I told you you're good! - Ma'am Pernia

That was a tough act to follow - Ma'am Umali

You're a very energetic class! - Ma'am Umali and Ma'am Pernia

In a span of four yrs here in masscom, this is the coolest exhibit

I've seen! *points at everything* that's good! Etc. - random cute

girl stranger

Hip hip hooray! - our class

Yes, the presentation was a success! That was a large crowd that

we have gathered.. of course we're thanking our important guests

who managed to spare time from their busy schedules to attend the

presentation.. we'd also like to thanks McDonald's for being the

food sponsor (150 chicken meals! Woah!)

Thanks to Kuya Neil too for coming and for staying until 12:30.

Thanks for sparing us a little of your time before going to your

practice. >_< and for the DOA CD too, yay! Complete songs! XD (PS:

maybe you should learn to play the violin too!) jk!

Of course I'd also like to thank each of my blockmates for

supporting each other in times of cholera.. my Goodness, before

the presentation, everything that could go wrong went wrong!

(wrong tarp layout , 3 tarps all in all, wrong press kit ) what a

waste of money.. but of course, we worked together instead of

blaming each other so everything went out well..

But of course, one big thanks goes out to meow meow!!! Thanks for

listening to me everyday, even though I know you're sick of

hearing me cry every single night, lolz and for lending me your

laptop... you saved my life! Heheh! I promise I'll buy another

laptop this summer so that your RO bots won't be put on hold too!

^_^v peace!

I felt that heaven and earth has been lifted upon my shoulder

after the presentation.. you see, it was the biggest burden of

all.. all my subjects, activities and life were put on hold

because of that, sleep became the unreachable dream for me during

those times. >_< but it was worth it!

"No more tears!" - Rai
------------ you bet!!!

There was one thing I'm frustrated though, for 3 agonizing weeks,

we were working on the analysis, scripts, presentation,

powerpoint, exhibits, all the hardships, pain, tears, screams,

were all condensed into a three hour presentation.. Just like

that, it ended! >_< Life is still not fair...

But I'm still happy, coz now my life goes back to normal.. I can

finally move on! As a proof, I've already encoded my work, 56

content analysis forms down, 144 websites more to content analyze

and encode!!! Weee! Not bad huh? >_< and I'll finally update my DA

and fanfic.. yeah! >_<

For next week I have 3 exams, Commres175-Management , Sociology

101 and Film 100.. Gee!

Two final papers too.. one full blown paper for a Gender Discourse

on Anime (we'll be using a quanti-quali method. I hope we could

finish that by weekend) and one case study for management.. ahahah

But I'm currently not that bitter! I swear! >_<

And for that, I'm formally ending this letter to you my dear

bloggie. I'm sorry it was so long, just felt like I have to tell

you everything.. thanks for listening! ^_^

And to you dear reader who had the patience to read this.. many

thanks to you too! MWAH! Till next time! ^_^

Again..THANKS to Ma'am Pernia for treating us.. weee! 3 domino's

pizza.. waaaaaahhh! we love you maam! She told us that until

today.. so many people were congratulating her.. >_<

I'll update my artworks next week.. wee!

About the Songs in my Playlist

2006-03-04T04:51:00.000-08:00

I've noticed that some of you who came across my blog was due to the songs in my playlist.. if you want to download it.. you can leave a message in my tagboard with your email address so I can send it to you.. sorry I can't give you my link.. the last time i did.. other people direct-linked it.. such horror.. XD please understand. THANKS! ^_^

Story of a Jinxed Girl

2006-02-28T05:05:00.000-08:00

I've been very busy this what? past 3 or 2 weeks? Sad coz i didn't even have time to update my blog nor DA.. XD i was so frustrated with everything.. seemed like I filtered all the bad luck this world can give..

First and foremost.. for the past 2 weeks.. I've been living in the UP Main library.. always carrying 2 equally heavy and big bags.. one for my things and thick books plus 1 for a 3kg laptop.. I don't have time to rest.. (more like, i have no right to rest) i had to bring the darn laptop everyday so I could do the papers anytime, anywhere.. (stupid lib won't let me in at first because i have two big bags with me)I've been reading all day long, all week (well.. a few naps inside the lib.. lol) EVERYNIGHT I always cry out of frustration.. >_< yet I couldn't tell anyone coz they wouldn't understand.. (some would keep telling me, "no its alright.. I feel the same.. I'm busy too..." but no... they just don't know how much!)

Its hard to study and work at the same time.. lolz I don't really need extra money but I was so eager to buy techie stuffs and have new costumes.. I couldn't ask my dad for it coz he just bought a very expensive digicam and laptop for me.. Now I'm working as my prof's research assistant (2 months contract, P11,000 was way too tempting to pass up)

All practices for the Tomasinotaku Nihon Night performance was a very big sacrifice for me.. i had no time to spare but I know that I should! Thankfully it went out very well.. SPECIAL THANKS to Neil of Do Ahou and Dawn of New Fallen Snow for our music.. >_< photos and videos? I will post the link soon.. ^_^ some pics were uploaded here though.. but not finished yet. (I'm the smallest bunny girl in the group) >_< all the hard work paid off.. I was told that our manager was approached by HERO Channel coz they have an event this march.. wah! Hopefully I wouldn't be too busy by then! and yeah all sorts of guys have surfaced.. now I don't have enough load to text them all! >_< but I'm thanking them for their attention.. I'm not bitter in any way.. thanks! ^^

some of our pics, not done uploading

Our next gig will be on april I think... for the Ongaku fest again... and Ozinefest.. my next costumes will be Reverie Metherlence of Erementar Gerad and Ashe of Final Fantasy 12.. >_<

I'll be singing again for our Commrespondents launch on Monday for the intermission.. XD I don't have time for practice.. waaahh! so I'm singing Tsubasa from Tsubasa Chronicles.. ahahah! you can listen to the song in my blog.. ^_^

Hmmm... what else? yeah.. my laptop crashed.. awww too bad for me.. my dad's not going to buy me another one til after 2 months.. I'll have to wait by then! Now I've learned my lesson.. laptops get tired too.. ahahah! but I have too many papers by the end of march!!! aaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!

another thing.. I have papers for my film class yet I haven't watched any of them yet nor read any of the film theories for basis.. and yeah after the exam I forgot all the technical terms.. I can identify the film techniques.. but I'm not sure if I can still name them..

Two, how bad can it get? The movies were supposed to be Brokeback Mountain and Memoirs of a Geisha.. but Memoirs of a Geisha was replaced by my prof.. replaced by a movie entitled Close To You (a local film) aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! The horror! we're supposed to review a local film currently shown in the theaters.. it was the only one! we had no choice! what makes these kinds of film tick? I DONT KNOW! how can I answer that? gah! its supposed to be due on this fri.. ack! somebody help me! >_<

I was supposed to pass a final paper this mon.. how did a 15 pages long paper made me cry? first, because I had to go to a funeral parlor to do the interview.. (thanks for everything meowmeow!) two, the professor was sooooo OC.. and a terror one at that, so I had to be OC to.. I became totally obsessed I think.. THREE.. three of the computers in our house were busted! all at the same time! on a sunday night! (paper due on mon) GOD! I almost broke down.. good thing.. I can still work with the other one.. but the computer constantly ticked me off.. I can't save it.. I don't have any copy.. after I've printed it, I have to type it again because that was just a final draft we're supposed to pass.. geez.. I'm the luckiest person on earth!

Errr.. too much rants.. that's it for now.. til next time! thanks for reading! ^_^

Congratulations Daddy!

2006-02-02T02:54:00.000-08:00

My dad has just told us that Pres. GMA had just signed his appointment as a Municipal trial court Judge! yey! finally! I know that he was really waiting for it and I was glad that it finally happened! Good Job daddy! love yah! >_< I was hoping I would get an allowance increase for this! hahah! kidding! again.. Congrats dad!

tRANCE , Do`Ahou and rants

2006-01-28T11:57:00.000-08:00

tRANCE went out of their way to SM fairview to meet Kuya Neil, the vocalist of Do'Ahou.. but it was worth it coz we had fun! XD Heheh we'll be collaborating for the event on February 18 (UST) .. he will be our guitarist for the day! wee! what an honor! and we're thanking him for the time he gave us. ^^
We sang our hearts out in a ktv.. (i posted the pics).. he was so good! *fangirl mode on* KYAAAAA!!! But everything's not "happy-happy" XD .. we had to discuss practice schedules plus song line ups.. And we came up with a tentative list (fukai mori, en rai, sakasama no chou) first two were dai songs while the third is the opening song of jigoku shoujo.. all songs subject to change.. >_<
I'm dreading this coming Monday coz me and my groupmates had to go to a funeral parlor to interview people for my sociology research paper.. >_< I AM SO AFRAID! they just don't know how much! Of all the topics to approve.. why did my professor chose that? T-T oh well...
I'm having a problem with the stat thing part of my COMMRES 165 research report... I'm confused with the tables plus all those numbers.. I knew it! I should have taken up the univariate reports! Now I'm stuck with mulivariate tables and elaboration analysis.. gah! anybody familiar with those stuffs? HELP!

some pictures I took today:

something I edited.. XD

New performance Sked

2006-01-24T03:25:00.000-08:00

we've just been informed that we were included in the band lineup (we're actually a girl trio... XD) for Tomasinotaku's event.. I'm excited and nervous at the same time coz I wasn't expecting on doing something big.. lolz anyway.. its going to be on february 18... >_< Hope to see some of you there! wish us luck! ^_^ Song lineup? i dunno yet.. >_<

Announcement: XD

2006-01-17T22:03:00.000-08:00

For upd studs: Tomorrow, January 19.. at 1:00 - 5:00 pm.. our topic will be "Shinigami:Declassified" how death gods were portrayed in animes...

VENUE: CAL 202

see yah there! ^^

tRANCE will perform there too... XD

Some ramblings

2006-01-15T05:54:00.000-08:00

guess.. I'm kinda becoming a DA addict now.. sadly though I can't update that as often as I want coz when I do my drawings, it always takes sometime... (I'm an OC person) oh well... but hey.. thanks to those who viewed my DA page already and added my works to their favorites.. XD keep the stats rolling.. >_< thanks a lot people!

While I was infront of the piano today, I came across a piece entitled "Moonlight Sonata" ... i tried to play it and *gasp* it was so sad it almost made me cry.. >_<
it was like being transported to a lonely and dark dimension.. I'll try to record it and upload it in my blog for you to hear it.. XD
with that, I suddenly had a fanfic idea and I want to have the same title... XD I'll make sure that my readers will cry too.. lol but as much as I want to start on it.. I can't.. coz I'm so loaded with lotsa stuffs... good thing I finished those stuffs for commres 165 already.. ^_^ errrr.. *slumps* there's still a lot more waiting in line..

so tired!!

Going Crazy

2006-01-14T09:38:00.000-08:00

so many works and assignments to do... so many term papers... gah! Don't be surprised if I'm grumpy one of these days... actually I might explode any minute now...

due for this week:
1. commres 165 individual (measures of ct) exercise
2. commres 165 group (univariate technique thingies) exercise and presentation
3. comm 141 problems
4. anthro 123 ethnography problem plus graded recitation
5. socio 101 term paper outline (about burial. what a way to start the week)
6. commres 175 decision making outline (management)
7. film 100 (have to go to the library to watch jean luc godard's "breathless"
8. so many readings

waaaahhh! you know... i don't even understand where I found the time to do another deviation and an entry for my blog.. lolz

i was also shocked to find out that I am fully booked (what a nice term) for next month.. (when I checked my organizer, all the presentations were due) I musn't also forget that we have a gig for feb.. must practice amidst all that schoolworks... XD

bunny girl outfit on the way.. eek!

MUST BUY ENERGY DRINKS! >_<

Some Film Stuffs

2006-01-13T08:12:00.000-08:00

I never got the hang of watching silent plus Black and white films but I guess I had to.. I ever imagined that I would watch a movie just to take note of all the technicalities like film form, style, cinematography, mise-en-scene and other things. It was hard for me to detect several cuts, what kind of lighting was used, what kind of shots, how long was the take, from what angle was it shot... (guess I'm bombarding you with technicalities.. I'm just giving you a feeling of shock.. like what I felt initially.. lolz) but I can't do anything about it coz it was a requirement to finish Film 100.. XD

But apart from that, I still felt lucky that I was able to watch the very first films! (coz we started from there, those 3 minute thingies) Aside from the very first films, I was also able to see the greatest film of all time like Citizen Kane plus those revolutionary and representative movies from all sorts of montage and classical hollywood cinema.. I just hope we'll get to contemporary cinemas soon...

so far.. we've watched:
1. First Films (can't name them, too many)
2. Wizard of Oz (Judy Garland)
3. Birth of a nation (narrative cinema)
4. The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari (german expressionism)
5. Un Chien Andalou (french surrealism)
6. Citizen Kane (top 1 - greatest movies of all time)
7. Battleship Potemkin (soviet montage)
- i fell asleep in the middle
8. Bicycle thief (italian neo-realism)

Next in line will be Jean Luc Godard's "Breathless" plus we're required to do a paper on "Brokeback Mountain" and "Memoirs of a Geisha", can't wait to watch them! Although I'm not sure I could do a very good technical review on those films!

Just wanted to share some bits and pieces.. hahah! I just wish I'll realize the difference between a crane shot plus other shots.. lol

well truth is.. I wrote this out of desperation.. any experts on these things? HELP!!! ^_^

Plug Plug Plug

2006-01-08T03:40:00.000-08:00

just finished doing the bloggie layout for my buddy cams.. please visit her link and give some comments... lolz thanks a lot people!

and by the way.. I've finished uploading some of my artworks... please visit my deviantart account too! click my avatar below.. heheh my pic.. how narcissistic noh? ^_^

A tribute to a Lost friend

2006-01-06T05:25:00.000-08:00

today marks the 3rd year death anniversary of my special friend pao... I was alone in my room this morning and then I remembered him suddenly... I don't know why but I suddenly had the urge to check my journal from two years ago and then that was it... It was on this fateful day..

I met him when I was still active in MIRC (Inside anime channels)..when he accidentally kicked me out..it was then that everything started. I wasn't really taking him seriously because I thought he was just one of those guys who plays around.. but i was wrong.. and it was already too late when I realized it. It was then that I learned that we should never take things for granted coz you may not know if it will be there again tomorrow... I learned that the hard way... It was so sudden..

Before he left, he gave me a huge angel pink stuffed bear which I could no longer see in blue magic stores... he told me that it will always watch me from then... and I think it really did.. >_< The last time we talked, he told me that he'll get well if I did (coz I was sick) but I guess he never did..

I would like to take this space to thank him for everything... I felt guilty coz I failed to remember him last year... that may be the reason why something came over me today... I will pray for you and I will always remember you wherever you are... your kindness will never be forgotten... you'll always be a part of me! and i know that you're now happy wherever you are. thanks again! ^_^

Weee! 1st post for this year!

2006-01-01T04:29:00.000-08:00

some of the entries earlier may not contain the real time or date when I posted the entry. Anyway, just decided to post today coz I AM SO DESPERATE ALREADY! I've been trying to do my Commres 165 assignment this whole !@#$%#$#@! vacation but until now I'm not able to finish it!!! I mean... hello??? Its just a matter of right "measure of central tendency" plus a "measure of dispersion!!!" How OC can I get? I've been doing this assignment for eternity and now I'm on the verge of pulling all my hairs off!!! Why? all the variables are nominal!!!! XD (well... almost) and I hate it!

oh well... so much for the first post this new year ne? XD and now... just to compensate me.. I want to enumerate my wishlist which came true just so I could still feel lucky despite all these tough loads.

Material Things I got this year:
1.Laptop
2.my dream digicam
3.A new Computer
4.DSL Connection
5.New Shirts

Nonmaterial:
1.New friends
2.a singing group/career/tRANCE (Anne and Nice)
3.My parents' full attention
4.my sis' company and care. lol
5.fans! wahahah
6.love (all around me)
7.best pals
8.support
9.help for everything
10.good school standing (college scholar)
11.good health
12.contentment

there's just so many things I haven't enumerated yet.. and seeing all these things.. NO STATISTICAL MEASURES OR INTERPRETATION CAN RUIN MY DAY.. EVER AGAIN! Thanks a lot everyone! ^_^

Looking back

2005-12-31T10:45:00.000-08:00

GUYS! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!

It has been a great 2005 for me... new friends and new opportunities knocked.. being a tRANCE member... I've come to realize again my love for singing which was sort of buried already... Thanks to all those who became the instruments and for giving us the idea! lolz And for those with undying support.. we love you too! A big thanks to Ate Cheska who has always been there for us.. as our manager-san! and for being giving us all those cons and gigs!

To Boom, Alex, Jonats and Earle for always being there! Suporting, clicking aways those cams and screaming!

To Anne and Nice... thanks for everything.. we've been through bad-voice day, bad-trip day, coffee-day and all sorts of days! Keep those fanboys coming! heheh! And I know... practice mode again... so many gigs lined up for next year.. hope we could get through those! (i'll Bring loads of pei pa koa candies!)

Thanks to my mom and dad for giving us everything we're whining for without any questions! We're not spoiled brats or anything... we're just loved too much! I promise that my status as a college scholar will be retained just so I could make you happy! Love you mom and dad!

Thanks to my whiney-assed little brothers! lolz for keeping me updated with all the games, walkthroughs, cheatcodes.. lolz! and for just being there! you two can always make me smile without even trying!

Thanks to my sis Patchie for ccoking for me! lolz for lending me her cellphone when i don't have any load.. and yeah.. for always being there... as our makeup artist! lolz luv yah sissypantz!

Rayhan.. uh... for lending me your money always... heheh! and for helping me with my props! you're the best!

To my blockmates... I'm thanking God coz we're always there to help each other when it comes to Measures of central tendency, varaiability, Anova, and all those crazy ideas they call Statistics.. I could have been in a mental hospital without all of you... Special thanks to Mama Wena and my buddy... Camicamz!

And lastly.. to meowmeow! things have been tough this past few months... I just hope that we can get through it and i hope that you'll change as you have promised... thanks for doing most of my homeworks and errands... i don't know what could have happened if you weren't there for me! XD

And yeah! Thanks for keeping this blog alive by visiting! the sitemeter doesn't lie folks! XD i love yah all! I'm glad that you're interested to see a part of my life! And i hope that you'll tag the next time you visit so that I'll know who you guys are. Thanks again ^^

To all my friends.. we've all lost contact! I'm still hoping that one day I'll receive a text from you guys telling me that we'll meet up in a nearby mall!

Again... thanks for everything... hope we can all start anew! and Happy New Year to All!

Fluffness

2005-12-28T09:07:00.000-08:00

When love beckons to you follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions
May wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
As the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you
so shall he crucify you.
Even as he is for your growth
So is he for your pruning.

The Prophet by Gibran Khalil Gibran

One of those many verses that I love... I don't know but it got stuck to me for a while.

Just when I thought that everything's perfect... but then.. fairytales don't always happen right? Sometimes we just had to wake up from a dream and may have to face reality.

Like something I've written in one of my fics... I can't get near him... He's the Sun and I'm the Moon... the intensity of his glow was so bright and hot. He may not know it... but I always get burned. I tried to match the intensity; but in the end, it was a disaster.

I am trying to be the good one you know... but it seemed like no matter how hard I try.. It's not always good enough... It's hard when that someone doesn't listen to you.

They said that a flame doesn't die a natural death... it's always because one way or another... someone is at fault... both person should look after it in order to keep it burning. Does it have something to do with predictability?Does love really wither without surprise and amazement? I don't know... but one thing's for sure though... I still am not giving up. Someday, I'll be in that fairy tale land once again.

Am I speaking in riddles? sorry can't help it...

A late MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2005-12-26T08:39:00.000-08:00

Belated Merry Christmas!!!! I was bent on posting here everyday but fanfics got in the way... plus I had anime marathons everyday! Talk about a couch potato.. I haven't even started on any of my assignments yet! I hate SPSS! and I don't wanna face it yet... hahahah!

And yeah...finally! I was able to upload another chapter of my fanfic... plus a one shot on another series I've watched 5 years ago~! how was I able to do that? I dunno... it was just a spur of the moment idea I had... XD

Anyway... I was so glad that I finally convinced mom and dad to buy a new PC.. and install a DSL... wah! (Finally!! we were just subscribed to Unlimited PLDT VIBE.. its so damn slow! im telling yah!) I'm going to hug them for the rest of the year... Now I know... constant puppy dog eyes method is effective! >_<

I'm going to have my hair fixed tomorrow.. XD i dunno but this spunky hairstyle kinda got stuck to me and I wanted to sport that cool do! Major hair coloring though... anime/j rock inspired... I hope it pushes through... I'm still having second thoughts coz I love my long straight hair.. T-T *i might cry* lolz last time I wanted to have a permanent curl... I backed out and decided to buy iron curlers instead... what will I do now? buy a wig?? >_< ugh!

Pls check my brother's deviantart account http://zidaneangelo.deviantart.com i'm telling yah! he's so good even if he's just a 13 year old kid! digital art is his forte.. mind you... he's drawing straight on MS Paint then he'll edit it on Ulead... (good ol reliable ULead!) so forgive some few mistakes. heheh

I am currently crazy over PRINCE OF TENNIS! wah! I love Ryoma Echizen... so many bishies... I want to have the Seigaku jacket too! XD Hahahah!

That's it again... just wanted to give you some updates... I'm currently working on another fic.. lolz... luv yah all!

PS: My sitemeter tells me that so many people visit this blog... how come no one's tagging? lolz! please do.. so that I will know if something's wrong or out of place here. ^^ last time i checked.. the ratio is 100:1 , wahahah! just kiddin!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! (errr... in advance) ^_^ MWAH!

AfterMath

2005-12-19T04:46:00.000-08:00

Finally!!! vacation at last.. but not a real vacation anyway.. XD my professors gave tons of assignments as their "gifts" for christmas coz they're so generous... >_<

Just came from ozine fest yesterday.. it was a nice event for me.. although the space was quite small.. I had to stay at the 2nd floor coz there's no space to walk downstairs.. I definitely learned how to walk sideways because of my headpiece! wahahah! XD I met some people who had my blood boiling for a while. One person had my blood boiling for ages already... (well since AME event last year - last yr okie? ) err... i just wanna say this thing to "that" person... "ang yabang mo dude!" just because people think you're great doesn't mean that you can go around with your head floating high above the sky and trying to show others that they're nothing. (just wanna take it off my chest.. coz i don't wanna dwell on it! after I post this.. I will no longer talk about that person.. from now on.. "that" person will just be an invisible "entity" for me! >_<)

Moving on.. I wasn't able to join the karaoke contest yesterday coz it was already too late.. the registration was closed when I arrived... too bad for me! Then again.. CONGRATULATIONS to TRANCE member.. Ann-chan for winning third place in the karaoke contest!!!! (considering that someone took her song already.. so she opted to sing our song.. "Tsubasa" without any practice!) waaaaahhh! galing nating lahat!!! even though Nice-chan didn't win.. I sure heard someone had said "wow! parang singer talaga!" weeee! ike ike TRANCE! Kyaaaa!

I will soon upload the pics from Ozine.. but my laptop was kinda busted.. (my sister dropped it somewhere.. XD the LCD had to be replaced so I had to wait.. I left the software cd somewhere for my digicam so I can't upload the pics in our PC.. wah! (i have no memory card reader yet) ---> here's the deal.. pictures from my digicam cannot be transferred on the pc without the easy share software.. lolz.. and I thought it was supposed to be an easy share.. wahahah! (well.. it does made the process of transferring faster and the software was excellent.. it had other functions too.. XD) anyway.. once my laptop is back.. i sure will upload the pictures... INCLUDING the pictures from AME Christmas Party!! wooohhhooo! (Prom party as our theme)... weeee! I really had fun although we had no time to sleep.. lolz (videoke all night!!!!)
A bunch of thanks:
Alet - for the great event! and nice venue!
Ann chan - for the TRANCE watch! weee! i love it!
Klaine - for the Naruto button pin ^^
Buta chan - errr...for the yaoi candy!!! wahahah! it was sugoi! (i felt so evil) lolz
Mikai - for the cd with some yaoi stuffs... wooohooo! plus the foods! XD
Kristel - for the cute teddy! it was really funny coz we really "exchanged" gifts
Nice - for being our makeup artist! expert desu! (totemo jouzu desu ne!!!)
Airis - for curling my hair.. XD

hhhmmm.. i guess that's it for now! I had to update my fic already.. and the longer I type here.. the more the possibility of draining out my creative juices.. lolz >_<

a few thanks and all...

2005-12-11T06:28:00.000-08:00

It has been a while since I last posted.. and i would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who attended our gigs for this year and supported us.. especially Boom, Earl and Jonats! screaming fans desu! XD wahahah FFgathering was the last for this year. ^_^ and it all went out well! (except for some major mishaps caused by meowmeow... don't ask please..) thanks to Reia for the brownies! and thanks for your comments! ^_^

Anyways.. don't fret! XD we have already have 3 gigs lined up for next year! waaah! I can't wait to practice.. practice... practice!!!!!

I also would like to thank my dad for purchasing a digital camera on such a short notice.. It was that fateful Saturday..

"dad, we're singing today and I don't have anything to cover the event"
"what about Ikay's cam?"
"she's using it today..."
"Okay, let's go to the mall then we'll see..."

I was planning to buy the P5,999 worth of camera coz I was afraid may dad will fret.. but I was really shocked coz he wanted something which can record videos with clear audio.. so I went home with something worth xxx php! XD imagine the discrepancy between what I was planning! I love you dad!!!!!!!!!

Okay enough of that... this Saturday.. tRANCE will be at the Ozine fest as Tsubasa Chronicle characters again.. I was really planning to go as Rabi en Rose from digicharat but my little sister fell in love with the costume..(i had it made already) so she'll be going as that character instead.. XD (poor me...) lolz We'll be joining the karaoke contest to.. but as individual contestants.. it will be just for fun though.. ahahah! But we'll still be asking for screaming people desu! I dunno, but I'm always composed if there are lots of people screaming.. like what happened in kAME Ulit.. I was shaky at first but when people started screaming, waving, and singing with us.. I became at ease onstage! Thanks to all of you again!

I am currently thinking about operationalizing the biggest decision in my entire life.. it is something personal but so many things are at stake... am i willing to risk everything for the sake of happiness? but the biggest question is... Am I really going to be happy? When can you say that "enough is enough?" waaaahh! I'm confused...

Oh and I was hoping I wouldn't see the scheming devil girl/SOCIAL CLIMBER again at the Ozinefest.. or else I might go "berserk" XD

Rise by Gabrielle

2005-12-03T23:31:00.000-08:00

I know that it's over
But I can't believe we're through
They said that time's a healer
And I'm better without you
It's gonna take time I know
But I'll get over you

Look at my life
Look at my heart
I have seen them fall apart
Now I'm ready to rise again
Look at my hopes
Look at my dreams
I'm building bridges from these scenes
Now I'm ready to rise again

Caught up in my thinking, yeah
Like a prisoner in my mind
You pose so many questions
But the truth was hard to find
I better think twice I know
That I'll get over you

Much time has passed between us
Do you still think of me at all?
My world of broken promises
Now you won't catch me when I fall

why did i post this one? go figure...

Another Plug

2005-12-01T05:24:00.000-08:00

couldn't tell yah everything that happened during the fair coz i was busy.. anyway.. maybe next time...

but before i log out... please please come and support tRANCE at Final Fantasy the Gathering!

Kolumn Bar Timog

entrance is at 100php with free drinks.

Hope to see yah there! we'll be singing A final fantasy medley.... XD

Some thoughts

2005-11-21T02:48:00.000-08:00

I finally got all three of my costumes today.. and just like i have said before.. I wasn't disappointed.. they were all done very well! anyway.. i'll be going as Tomoyo Hime on saturday so I hope I'll see yah there! XD

I can't sleep early nowadays.. usually.. i'll still be up and jumpy until 4:00 AM! what the hell is wrong with me? is this a sign of stress? insomnia? oh well... if this continues.. i'll be in a big heap of trouble.

I'm happy coz mom agreed to pay for my wig.. XD lolz.. i don't wanna cut my long hair coz some people always tell me that it is beautiful..ahahaha! anyway.. even if i don't cut it.. i still have some evil plans for it.. (should be accomplished by christmas break) XD

i'm stressed already coz most of my profs started giving piles of assignments and readings already.. gee.. too excited huh? i wanted to retain my status as a college scholar so i'm really trying my best to still cope up despite tons of extra curricular activities.. (given the fact that kAME Ulit is slated for saturday and Ff gathering will be next week - And last time we practiced.. our vocal chords were so stressed!) but hey.. i'm still human.. i can only take so much.. >_<

i am angry over some social climbing b***h who used me to achieve her evil plans. she got what she wanted.. to my expense! i didn't expect that coz she seemed kind enough to me.. (scheming a*****e!!)i hate you! and may you face oblivion and go to h**l! It is not my nature to curse but what she did was so unforgivable! plastic, backstabber, evil, manipulator, opportunist, trying hard.. that's what she is! never EVER show your face to me again! the nerve! (she still talks to me like nothing happened.. JEEZ!) what kind of a shit is she? i had a message for her in my abandoned blog but i wouldn't post it here coz i don't want to waste some space for her. she'll come across that message eventually..

anyway.. i'm really sorry for the kind of message or curses i postes! i only did that coz i was so angry and i needed some outlet.. XD thank you for understanding..

Sometimes when emotions are overwhelming, and you can't even tell it to someone close to you, you'll find someone who is ready to listen. Someone who doesn't even know you that well, and someone who can pretend they feel the same way even if they don't. But the story doesn't end there, they'll probe deeper… until you tell them your deepest anxiety and *poof* ….suddenly…. everything around you changes. coz they will definitely sell you out! so guys.. beware..

through that, i proved that "Experience is a hard teacher,because she gives the test first, then the lesson afterwards.."

waaahh

2005-11-19T23:56:00.000-08:00

i forgot to bring my mouse so I'm actually having a hard time surfing the net using a laptop.. stupid touchpad.. so stupid of me... XD

just came from UP AME ingress/general meeting this morning... tRANCE will be performing at 2:10 or 2:00 PM so please watch out for us and support us! woohoo! and by the way.. i'm quite relieved that i was assigned to a cosplay related job for the fair.. heheh coz i wanted my old job (usher for cosplay judges at the prejudging room) i'll either be at the registration booth, same job or usher for cosplayers (which is quite hard coz my friends who were assigned there last year were so freaked out - running to and fro, up and down, looking for the cosplayers who were next in line.. ahahah *i can't run with the kind of costume I'm going to wear...*)

hahah! i'm so excited already coz i'm going to get my costumes tomorrow! i saw them last week.. the shop was really good! although i spent quite a lot already... ^_^

that's it for now.. i'm gonna post another entry tomorrow! see yah!

and hope to see yah at the fair okie? ^-^

Drat!

2005-11-13T01:25:00.000-08:00

went into a download craze last night.. so i slept at about 4am in the morning and woke up at 7am.. (jeez!) what a crazy girl!

haven't finished the seahorse thingies.. lolz my hands were kinda sore for twitching all sorts of wires and spraying paints.. but I'm making sure that they won't get rough by applying aia hinoki hand cream which works wonders! (is this an advertisement? am i being paid for this?) heheh sorry.. kinda outa myself tonight.. high on paints i guess XD

anyway.. i have to go to bed now coz i'll hafta wake up early tomorrow already..
to go to church and for costume fitting.. (gee! i wonder if they look fine?)
My seamstress was so OC that she wanted me to go to her almost every week to check how she's doing.. she was really good so i don't know why i have to..

anyway.. again... goodnyt! ^_^ and yeah.. i'm stating the real time here okie? :p

weekend! and few announcements

2005-11-12T00:30:00.000-08:00

finally!!! weekend! hahah! *slips to vampire mode*

anyway.. i was glad that this week has finally come to an end.. but it gave me a frightening glimpse of this semester..

FILM 100 - i should be prepared for long boring speeches.. and sit on my butt for 3 straight hours without break! we had to watch boring actuality movies starting from 1896!!! with eerie type orchestral backgrounds which throbbed the hell out of my brain! XD AND WE HAVE TO WATCH FILMS EVERY NOW AND THEN.. I'm not much of a movie critic so i don't know if I can excel in this subject... *sighs*

so that's it for now.. i still have to resume my work.. hahah! my sissie and i are working on seahorse costumes to be used on a little mermaid play.. wahahah! new raket.. we're doing props for cosplays also *winks* but please inform us 1 month before coz hello??!!! we're students also.. lolz.. ^_^

oh yeah.. we're also into the earrings business.. mom gave us capital for it.. and 'tis doing well. and take note..we personally make the designs and the earrings themselves so you can choose your own design and color..

contact me for further inquiries.. ^_^

don't forget!!! kAME ULIT on nov 26! UP Bahay ng Alumni!

Support tRANCE!!!!

weee

2005-11-09T19:30:00.000-08:00

waaahhh! enrollment finally done! i couldn't pay yesterday coz silly old me punched the wrong pin numbers on my atm 3 times!!!.. jeez! how dumb can i get? anyway.. i was glad it worked today.. >_<

i was so blessed coz i got all the subjects i enlisted for! (which is so rare! ) hahah! but i was pissed off coz i woke up too early today thinking it was already the start of classes..
to my horror.. it was still the day for enlistment.. jezzzzz!!!!

apart from that.. i was also happy coz i got into the college scholar list.. i didn't think it was possible because of the stat commres subject but i guess God can still make miracles... (for hopeless people like moi!) lolz

thanks for listening to my rants! ^_^ see yah soon!

some stuffs

2005-11-07T00:00:00.000-08:00

waah! start of another sem again.. and i thought 3 weeks was long! you see... costume props were not done yet.. (i'm making 3... gunner yuna, tomoyo hime, and rabi en rose aka usada hikaru) i haven't memorized the lyrics of the songs we're going to sing.. wahahah!(sowee nice!) coz i kinda slacked off and devoted time for downloading stuffs.. XD

hopefully.. this sem will go by quickly... and while am at it, for my story reviewers.. (i told them to drop by my bloggie) heheh i promise i'm going to add more chapters but i dunno when since i think my plot sucks... (have to read and revise over and over again... can anyone apply to be my beta reader? pretty please?) and i'm also working on my deviantarts so i'm kinda overloaded for now! But that won't stop me from doing a naruto fic too!!! hahah! geez! i love you naruto!!! XD

so there.. i have to prepare for tomorrow.. ^_^ See yah when i see ya!

and don't forget.. kAME ulit on nov 26! you can txt, email or tag here for help on ticket reservations! i can do it for yah! ^_^ mwah!

updates!

2005-11-06T03:02:00.000-08:00

wee! finally... i perfected the embed codes!!! XD and as a result.. the music player section of this bloggie! but since freewebs hosting is so damn slow.. i have uploaded only 3 songs so far.. >_< then again.. i'll try to upload other songs one by one...

sore ga ai deshou - the one that we performed at ongaku session
blaze - tsubasa chronicles opening song
loop - tsubasa chronicles ending song (we were supposed to sing this at kAME ulit but we found out that it won't showcase our blending prowess! hahah!)

just wait for it to buffer up.. sowee bout that delaying thingie.. i tried using radio blogger since it plays the song on the spot.. but i realized it will be too hellish since the song buffers up while playing! (meaning it stops all the time while you're listening.) with media player, it takes a long time but it is much worthwhile since it plays continuously.

we had a shopping spree today! mom is so over excited.. lolz.. i ended up buying 1 pair of black boots (perfect for my gunner yuna costume) , 1 japanese schoolgirl type black shoes (in super high heels) , and a pwetty white shoes.. plus an oversized bag perfect for the laptop.. lolz! mom loves japanese stuffs these past few days.. (to my advantage!!! hahahah!)

so there.. thats it for now! see yah tomorrow! ja!

waiii!

2005-11-05T01:30:00.000-08:00

just came home from kat's house.. XD my friends and I missed each other so much that we decided to spend our time together until midnight.. heheh we rented movies.. and then took time to tell stories.. >_< good thing dad is okay with the idea of fetching me at this hour.. ^_^ but i ended up with holes in my pockets.. XD (wahahah I spent an average of 400 php today..with all that malling, FOODS! coffees, and movie.. >_< My mom is going to fret.. hahah!

fanfiction.net is so overloaded today.. last time i checked.. my story had 85 hits so far.. oh my! that was so unexpected.. for only 2 days! >_< i thought no one would even bother since it was a total crap.. i wrote it for only 30 minutes... and yeah.. i've gotten one good review which commended me for doing something like that and encouraged me to continue.. XD i dunno... i'm the queen of unlikely pairs and i think that what i did was still a crap.. T-T

since someone has been bothering me about this.. to tell you the truth.. my former author name was... SNACKYPOOS!!!

cute right? *winks*

Some few stuffs

2005-11-03T02:20:00.000-08:00

I've already uploaded another fic! Yay! i'm getting addicted to this.. dang...well who knows.. this might be just another passing fancy of mine.. anyway.. its in Yu yu hakusho okei? but i still won't tell you my pen name.. XD I'm in love with unlikely couples.. coz they're more interesting to read.. and it will take an adventurous mind to make them end up with each other.. I've read a few trash but then again.. i've found some exceptional authors too! Hope you'll find my story! mwah!

Oh and yeah.. here i go with this kinds of rants again.. you see... my dad is a city prosecutor or fiscal for short.. but you know.. I'm still not used to seeing different criminals and policemen going in and out of our house... T-T coz outside office hours.. if the case is very urgent.. they'll usually bring them here.. coz a part of our house is my dad's office.. this laptop and pc were situated there so i get to see them face to face... always! my mom is used to it.. but not me.. i still get the shivers whenever I see them coz they looked like the usual goons or bad guys in movies! And don't you think that its too dangerous? (murderers, rapists, thieves.. jeez! can't they just wait for tommorow?) >_<

ok.. i'll stop.. T-T

Wee

2005-11-02T02:26:00.000-08:00

so tired.. XD but i finally fixed up the tagboard codes.. ..

but wait.. there's more!

heheh other bloggy parts will be uploaded tom!

and by the way.. most fanfic writers inspired me.. so i decided to revive my fanfic writing career! you'll see my works at http://www.fanfiction.net but i won't tell you my author name.. coz you might flame me! bwahahah!

hint: anime section and the author name is kinda close to my other usernames.. *wink*

XD

2005-10-31T23:40:00.000-08:00

happy halloween peeps! muahahah! i'm going to sleep early coz we're going out early tomorrow morning.. besides.. i'm afraid something might pop up beside me anytime *shivers* and yeah i wasn't able to fix the tagboard codes but i added sumthin here.. XD sorry bout the blurred gif files.. gif movie gear kinda messed up the resolution of the piccies... XD heheh anyway.. till tomorrow! ^_^v ja mata ne! mwah!

Finally!!!!

2005-10-31T03:30:00.000-08:00

after 48 years of editing.. gif making, typing codes while searching for fanfics.. my new layout is finally up! I decided to republish it eventhough its not that finished yet.. it still needs some few more polishings and other add ons.. watch out for my music player here! it will be up soon. ^^ i'll do something about the tagboard codes too.. im just too sleepy to edit the codes.. XD probably tomorrow.. tell me what you think.. any suggestions? is the layout too baby-ish? cutesy? irritating? thanks! Oh and belated Happy bday to my dearest sistah! mwah! (her birthday was yesterday) ^^

sowee

2005-10-25T01:30:00.000-07:00

i was very eager to start on my new layout.. in fact.. i have finished the main picture.. however.. this past few days i have been so engrossed with fanfictions all over again.. (no! not yaoi fanfics ok? well i admit i love yaoi fanfics before but i already graduated from that.. my brother wont believe me though..*yaoi means a boy-to-boy relationship and i used to love sakuragi x rukawa pairing* )bwahaha! i'm into something hetero now!!! but that doesn't mean that i'm closing my doors on yuri things! bwahahah! (meowmeow will get mad for this XD)I SPENT HOURS.. NO! DAYS! staring at my laptop.. reading fanfics.. up to 4:00 am!my gawd! can't believe it! those guys were really good! got me engrossed for weeks!

anyways... not so many people know that i can draw and paint very well.. for that.. i am signing up for a deviantart accout so i can show my works to you guys! (clap clap) hope you'll support and visit that site as much as you visit my bloggie! ^^ thanks!

and by the way.. i'll try to upload the new layout as soon as i get over with fanfics.. i'm tired of black coz i realized that its not ok to scan a blog in black.. the next color scheme will be in sky blue and pink! wee! more kao-ani pics for cuteness sake! ^^

i'm currently downloading the karaoke versions of ff themes from 8-10... i'm going to edit them so that they'll be in a medley fashion.. i'll try to do a bit of remix too.. wahaha! (yes, i'm also fond of tinkering with music.. not just pictures and weblayouts.. XD)We'll be using them for our next gig.. however.. i can't find any karaoke version of Namida no ato ni (after the tears by Mayuko Aoki) if you happen to have the ffx vocal collections album... please please can i borrow it? thanks guys!

Karoke version of Houki Gumo (Comet Cloud)by RYTHEM *yeah i spelled it correctly* is desperately needed too.. ^^ thanks again!

TRANCE GIGS UPDATE:

kAME ulit fair - nov 26 , Bahay ng Alumni UP Diliman

Final Fantasy Gathering - dec 3 - Kolumn Bar Tomas Morato

hope to see you there! bye for now! ^^ (coz im scanning for fanfics again!) thanks for bearing with me!

updates soon

2005-10-15T23:39:00.000-07:00

yep! sembreak! wee! i'm going to do another update of this bloggie.. another tsubasa chronicles theme.. or yuna.. i have yet to decide... T-T and as promised, more worth reading entries.. ^^

i have a problem.. XD since we're going to sing on nov 12.. i had to wear a yuna costume... but i can't decide which of them.. i don't want to recycle but i can't decide.. waaaahhh.. XD weird right? ffx-2 yuna singing suteki da ne.. but who cares? heheh XD

weee

2005-10-14T22:27:00.000-07:00

just came from the induction rites and sem ender party of UP AME.. it was fun.. and by the way.. some major changes for tRANCE sched... we're going to perform at the Final Fantasy Gathering!! Somewhere in Tomas Morato.. Kolumn Bar i think.. heheh! we're going to cosplay FF! wee! i'm going as Yuna... coz i'm the one who's going to sing Suteki da Ne.. ^^

Ongaku Session and Other Stuffs

2005-10-03T20:23:00.000-07:00

I was so sleepy when i posted the tRANCE pics link last time.XD It was very tiring yet for our official debut performance as tRANCE (we used to sing back then to represent UP AME but we didn't have an official name until the performers audition for the fair), it was good (according to feedbacks) but that bar's sound system was so busted!(freedom bar at Anonas). We sang ALONE and SORE GA AI DESHOU (both by Shimokawa Mikuni). It was our "gutay gutay version" because of the sucker sound system! Hehe we had to promote our upcoming fair... XD ABC 5 covered the event.. wee! hhhmmm.. what else? we were so distracted by cameras flashing everywhere and in front of us.. (some of them focused on our legs.. grrrr) but apart from that everything was fine... I think!

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS:

Thanks to Sir Raffy of Blue Room (we had to practice at a studio pa.. XD ) for giving us samples of Blackforest and Choco Orange coffee goodies!Those are their most expensive and delicious products! weee! Those stuffs perked us up!

Thanks to my sissy (Patchie) for bearing with us and for being tRANCE official makeup artist!

Ron for being our bodyguard for a while. ^^

Cheska, Alex and Boom for taking care of musics and stuffs, plus requesting for a much earlier timeslot. (we were supposed to sing at 10:30-11:00 pm but they moved it at 9pm) ^^

UP AME for paying our entrance fees!

what else? heheh check our official photobucket account.. and tRANCE official website will be up by sembreak.. (vain people) XD

Next official singing stint will be at UP AME's kAME ulit fair so watch out for us! ^^

ongaku session aftermath

2005-10-02T02:29:00.000-07:00

wala lang... we had to sing there.. so eto yung official tRANCE photobucket! go tRANCE!

click here

sowee ulit

2005-10-02T02:10:00.000-07:00

and may mali sa codes ko right now.. saka ko na lang aayusin.. tintamad talaga me... ^^

SOWEE

2005-09-28T22:31:00.000-07:00

saka ko na ireresize yung biggie pics... tinatamad na ko........ XD

Hell Weeks

2005-09-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

I was in the middle of editing our RRL (review of related literature) for commres 130 when I decided to write yet another entry. I felt really exhausted these past few days because I am a busy bee. XD The end of this semester is like hell for all of us since every requirement have to be met. Want some few examples?

CR 170 – sample brochures for an organ donation campaign we’ve been working on since the start of the semester (no final exam! Weee! Luv u maam kate! )

CR 130 – full blown qualitative research paper about Filipino Communicative Behaviors in the context of courtship (due after 2 weeks)
- Sir Lacson is still deciding whether to give us individual paperworks in replacement for our final exam.

CR 120 – full blown quantitative secondary analysis research paper on family planning as against other variables. We still have to find out if we’re going to buy data files from NSO… >_< (due the day after CR 130 deadline)
- Final exam will be on OCTOBER 6 (me and my blockmates still have problems understanding multivariate techniques)
- I still don’t know how to do repeated measures and independent measures ANOVA
- I still have problems interpreting hypothesis testing results
- I hate the normal curve
- I hate statistics. PERIOD. AMP.

COMM 120
- Final exam on October 8
- Full details of a case on libel (the American consul thing) or full details of a case on right to privacy (the man trying to save a woman from jumping). But in order to get hold of those stuffs.. we have to go to the College of Law… waaaahhhh!!! So scawy!

HAPON 11
- Final exam on October 11
- Lotsa Kanjis to memorize
- Have to memorize vocabs all over again
- Have to memorize Japanese sentence patterns
- Need I say more?

BC 100 (broadcasting)
- no final exam!!!! Weeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! Luv u maam Perl! ^^

got the entire picture? Poor me………… all of these things… in 2 weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have to remember that full blown paper means that it’s a sort of entire thesis already with all that ishtufid parts… XD

AMP!!!!!!!!!!!!! /pif

commres madness

2005-09-21T23:09:00.000-07:00

we are all going gaga over a group exercise which is due tomorrow already.. XD

We were given data files that we should test for significance, but then.. we couldn't exactly figure out if we should use the one sample case analysis or the anova..

in the end, we opted for the one sample case because we don't know how to compute for anova using SPSS... we all wanted to cry... pure ngarag and "haggardous" moments! wahahah.. and our eyebags show it all! wahahah! ^^

errr... what more can i say? AMP!!!! AMP TALAGA!!! ISHTUFID! XD

Siggy

2005-09-18T23:22:00.000-07:00

i dunno but it seemed like i don't have any better things to do so i decided to just do another siggy.. in 10 minutes or so.. XD i guess it turned out fine but of course you'll be the one to judge.. XD heheh

i slept at 3:30 am this morning.. and i had to wake up early to go to church.. hhhmmm.. and then at exactly 3:30 this afternoon, I, together with patch and my two brothers.. played RO.. with all the town massacres and everything.. waaahhh.... bad idea.. super lag... XD then again.. i was able to gain 1 base level up.. XD with almost 4 hrs? not bad.. XD Anyway.. still have to prepare for my class tomorrow so there.. as promised earlier.. here's my siggy.. ^^

i'm really really sorry for the stupid things i'm posting here coz i'm always in a hurry since this sem will end already.. and for commres majors like me.. september and october are hell months! data gathering, paper making and all that stuffs..
i'll make it up to yah dear bloggie! mwah!

Finally

2005-09-17T22:15:00.000-07:00

haven't posted here in a while... can't blame me.. lotsa stuffs to do.. midterms and stupid research papers... plus org activities to boot... T-T

i went to AME apps deliberations today and it was kinda boring coz almost everything went on smoothly.. ahahah! no excitement!!!! XD sadly though.. those people whom i want to put on probation passed the delibs.. arrrgghh!! anyway.. just have to live with it.. CONGRATULATIONS to those peeps who passed! ^_^

By the way..Ann, Nice and me auditioned for the AME fair.. (as TRANCE) which stands for our name.. (combination.. duh XD)we sang sore ga ai deshou which went on smoothly.. i think. ^^ we were planning to cosplay characters from tsubasa reservoir chronicles and i'll be Tomoyo hime! weee!!!! XD

Err... that's it for now coz i'm trying to figure out how to do a significance test on SPSS! waaaahhhh!!!! stupid chi square! stupid anova! stupid pearson's r! stupid stats! XD

New Announcement!!!!!

2005-09-03T19:37:00.000-07:00

The University of the Philippines Anime Manga
Enthusiasts is currently looking for interested
bands, performers and emcees for its upcoming
second fair dubbed "kAME ulit! The Premiere
Collegiate Anime Fair in the Philippines."

What: Band / Performer(s) / Emcee(s) AUDITIONS

When: September 10, 2005 (Saturday)

Time: 9 am - 6 pm

Where: BLUE ROOM (72 Maginhawa St., UP
Village, Q.C)

Additional Details:

* Songs may be anime songs, J-pop and/or J-rock.

* Bands and Performers can perform up to 2
songs. Bands will be given 10 minutes for setup
and performance; Performers will be given 5
minutes for their performance. Performances may
be
song and/or dance.

* Interested bands/performers/emcees must
register on or before September 7, 2005. Details
should include:

FOR BANDS:
Band Name
Band Members and their instruments
Brief description of band
Title of Audition Songs
Preferred Time for Auditions

FOR PERFORMERS:
Performer(s) name(s) / Group name
Description of group (if group performer)
Title of Audition Songs
Preferred Time for Auditions

FOR EMCEES:
Name
Past Emcee Experiences
Preferred Time for Auditions

* E-mail the details to kame_ulit_auditions
[at] up-ame.org. Confirmation of Registration will
be sent via e-mail on September 8, 2005. This will
include your time slot on Sept. 10.

* 8 bands, 5 performers and 2 emcees (1 guy and
1 girl) will be selected from the Auditions.
Selected bands, performers, and emcees will be
informed via e-mail.

For questions, visit our Auditions thread:
http://forums.up-ame.org/viewtopic.php?t=15

Add "up_ame" to your LiveJournal Friends List:
http://www.livejournal.com/friends/add.bml?
user=up_ame

XD

2005-08-07T20:30:00.000-07:00

i'm looking for a software named SPSS for surveys.. XD but i couldn't find any... and oh yeah... quite irritated coz since this afternoon.. my sis kept on playing the piano.. it was okay at first but she's always playing vera's theme and moonlight sonata.. they're classics and i love em but once you keep on hearing them over and over again... you know what's next. XD ahaha... anyway.. juz passing by and thanks for the time! after the midterms i promise you'll be seeing posts worth reading.. ^^;; bye for now!!

Fun fun fun? Nah....

2005-08-06T20:11:00.000-07:00

spent the whole day playing insaniquarium... its kinda easy and insane at the same time yet it is strangely addicting too.. you want to know how insane? try downloading it at gamehouse.com XD anyway.. i've been very busy lately since midterm exams are already on the way.. T-T one word to describe me? NGARAG. lolz! so now you don't have to ask me "how are you?" XD I'm also trying to figure out where we could buy data for our secondary analysis.. and in case we already found out where to buy it.. how much are they going to cost? WAAAHHH! anyhow.. bye for now coz I still have to review for our BC 100 exams... well for that subject... how am i going to do it? (the review i mean) WATCH TV! WEEEEEE!!!!!! kinda insane too coz almost half of the exam items are all about tv shows.. hahah! Can't blame her though.. coz the subject is all about broadcasting.. duh... ^^;; wish me luck so i can watch many tv shows and lotsa channels.. ^^ *evil grin*

shopping spree

2005-07-31T22:40:00.000-07:00

My sis and I accompanied mom to the grocery today... well the original idea was to buy a nonstick pan and some foods.. but instead of buying foods and stuffs.. we ended up shopping... XD (though we went home with a frying pan too). The two.. (mom and patch) spent hours at ideal vision trying to find glasses that will suit them while I on the other hand scouted for contact lenses.. ^_^;; after that.. with the three of us still not satisfied.. we also ended up with three pairs of shoes... one for each of us.. (oh dear.. ). I think Patchie also bought a watch after that.. Mom seemed to be in the mood to spend so much today.. XD wahahah! so much for a family day.. my two brothers were left in the house.. playing nonstop... what can we expect? boys hate shopping. Nah... don't call me "kikay" or whatever.. i'm just psyching up for a lllooonnnnggg school week.. you know... lots and lotsa school works.. ^^ By the way.. before i forget.. "Thanks Camz!" hehe.. she paid for my foods last Friday.. (buddy date! weee!) hhmmm... i guess that's all for now.. ^^;;

ANNOUNCEMENT

2005-07-30T22:25:00.000-07:00

The University of the Philippines Anime Manga Enthusiasts is currently looking for interested bands, performers and emcees for its upcoming second fair dubbed “kAME ulit! The Premiere Collegiate Anime Fair in the Philippines.”

What: Band / Performer(s) / Emcee(s) AUDITIONS

When: August 20, 2005 (Saturday)

Time: 9 am - 6 pm

Where: RED DAMIEN STUDIOS (#7 Uranus St., Congressional Subd. Brgy. Bahay Toro, QC 1100)

Click here for map

Additional Details:

Songs may be anime songs, J-pop and/or J-rock.
Bands and Performers can perform up to 2 songs. Bands will be given 10 minutes for setup and performance; Performers will be given 5 minutes for their performance. Performances may be song and/or dance.
Interested bands/performers/emcee must register on or before August 14, 2005. Details should include:

FOR BANDS:
Band Members and their instruments
Brief description of band
Title of Audition Songs
Preferred Time for Auditions

FOR PERFORMERS:
Performer(s) name(s) / Group nameDescription of group (if group performer)
Title of Audition Songs
Preferred Time for Auditions

FOR EMCEES:
Name
Past Emcee Experiences
Preferred Time for Auditions

E-mail the details to kame_ulit_auditions [at] up-ame.org. Confirmation of Registration will be sent via e-mail on August 15, 2005. This will include your time slot on Aug. 20.

8 bands, 5 performers and 2 emcees (1 guy and 1 girl) will be selected from the Auditions. Selected bands, performers, and emcees will be informed via e-mail.

also.. try to visit our forums for your questions.. ^^
Click here

Happy Happy

2005-07-25T22:02:00.000-07:00

weeee! i have a new laptop... XD its a super slim version but it is kinda heavy... T-T i've been whining for that for ages already that's why i'm really happy and even excited to post mundane things here... thanks mom and pop! ^^ MWAH! anyway.. i just thought i'd share that. ^^

By the way.. someone asked me why audition is needed for the fair concert..well.. we just thought that every band should be given an equal opportunity.. ^^ if some of you still have questions in mind... don't hesitate to tag here, msg/txt, or email me. Bye for now! mwah!

New Layout

2005-07-25T10:06:00.000-07:00

Finally! My TC layout is done already... but i'm still wondering why i placed so many kao-ani gifs instead of tsubasa chronicle pics... lolz anyway... i'm not done with the whole bloggie yet... as you can see.. some sections are to be updated.. and while i'm at it, i'll try to put other add-ons.. XD How was last week? i can barely remember... ^^;;

My mom will be accompanying me to a computer shop today to buy me a laptop! weeeee! I finally convinced them that i reaaaaalllyyy reeeeeaaaallllyyy need that thing. That's why I have to go already... BYE!

ANNOUNCEMENT:

BAND AUDITIONS FOR THE COMING UP AME (UP Anime Manga Enthusiasts) kAME ULIT FAIR WILL BE ON AUGUST 20.

VENUE: TO BE ANNOUNCED

anyway... you can contact me for that one... ^^;;

Photobucket

2005-07-24T07:08:00.000-07:00

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XD

2005-07-19T17:40:00.000-07:00

Just passing by.. heheh there was another bomb threat in cmc today... i guess that guy doesn't know what to do with his life.. XD anyways.. classes were not suspended but policemen were everywhere again... By the way.. there seemed to be a problem with my blog layout.. the main picture became small.. is it just the windows XP or what?

Of bomb threats, House of Flyring Daggers and a Crazy Man

2005-07-18T00:47:00.001-07:00

Surpise surprise! I was able to update this blog again.. I dunno but while doing my film critique for "House of Flying Daggers" i couldn't help but make another file for the blog. XD anyway, the movie was great.. very cinematic but I didn't liked it very much simply because of lack of story and character development. Great choreography and costumes but was too melodramatic for me.. (sowee for those who loved this film *peace*). Anyhow! about bomb threats and crazy man... while i was walking towards cmc.. i saw a crazy naked man.. who believes that he's the jungle boy and made all sorts of funny "jungle noises". There was a guard after him but he wasn't taking the necessary steps to shoo him away.. i don't know if he was afraid... XD What I did? run like a crazy girl just to avoid the guy! Jeez! It was really traumatic... That was last thursday. Oh well! What about the bomb threats? Well... after I finished ALL of the readings for my saturday class.. I also came early (my class was at 8:30) and on my way to cmc.. i saw students outside the building.. i was sorta confused coz all of my classmates were outside too.. they called me and told me that there was a bomb threat.. SERIOUSLY? of all UP buildings, why cmc? I didn't believe them until I saw police cars and officers roaming around... and because of that... classes were suspended... what a bummer again. By the way.. here are some of the pictures during the CRS orientation and first night funk... there's a pic of me singing too... XD since i wasn't able to practice... my performance sort of became "the practice"... talk about lucky week! We've also had all sorts of research proposals to be submitted next week.. since 2 of my commres teachers will be in Beijing next week to present their papers... they left us with so many works. ^_^ oh well.. that's life! Oooh.. i forgot... i'm also quite happy coz my other cat gave birth already... lolz... la lang.... ^^;;Surpise surprise! I was able to update this blog again.. I dunno but while doing my film critique for "House of Flying Daggers" i couldn't help but make another file for the blog. XD anyway, the movie was great.. very cinematic but I didn't liked it very much simply because of lack of story and character development. Great choreography and costumes but was too melodramatic for me.. (sowee for those who loved this film *peace*). Anyhow! about bomb threats and crazy man... while i was walking towards cmc.. i saw a crazy naked man.. who believes that he's the jungle boy and made all sorts of funny "jungle noises". There was a guard after him but he wasn't taking the necessary steps to shoo him away.. i don't know if he was afraid... XD What I did? run like a crazy girl just to avoid the guy! Jeez! It was really traumatic... That was last thursday. Oh well! What about the bomb threats? Well... after I finished ALL of the readings for my saturday class.. I also came early (my class was at 8:30) and on my way to cmc.. i saw students outside the building.. i was sorta confused coz all of my classmates were outside too.. they called me and told me that there was a bomb threat.. SERIOUSLY? of all UP buildings, why cmc? I didn't believe them until I saw police cars and officers roaming around... and because of that... classes were suspended... what a bummer again. XD about me singing… since
i wasn't able to practice... my performance sort of became "the practice"... talk about lucky week! We've also had all sorts of research proposals to be submitted next week.. since 2 of my commres teachers will be in Beijing next week to present their papers... they left us with so many works. ^_^ oh well.. that's life! Oooh.. i forgot... i'm also quite happy coz my other cat gave birth already... lolz... la lang.... ^^;;

A Long Entry.. ^^

2005-07-10T21:08:00.000-07:00

sorry i wasn't able to post anything last week... coz i've got lotsa stuffs to do.. school and org things ya know... In fact.. 'tis already a miracle that i had the time to squeeze one post this week.. la lang.. i juz felt like i had to update this thingie... i felt awful coz i don't have enough time to do the layout i was planning... anyways... that will push through... although not this time... after midterms maybe... I'm also planning to add a photo gallery here... my photos... well you can call me narcissistic but i can't do anything about it.. *wink*. Anyhow.. commressoc's applicants orientation will be on tuesday and guess what? I'ma going to sing again.. gee... in demand! lolz Too bad i don't have time to practice for that.. i'm juz going to do a number i've already done sometime during my center for pop shows.. My dad insisted that i should sing "Objection Tango" of Shakira.. which i sang during our practicum at Padi's point Edsa central.. (too many facts eh?).. coz that's one of his personal favorites.. (i dunno why).. i also won the "best in tonal quality" award for that one... jeez! but i don't feel like dancing tango or doing another hip shaker for that matter... that song requires too much energy! My other choice was "Fighter" (which i sang during our mall show) and "Better Days" but those songs require too much vocal prowess.. i'm in no mood to belt out! I wuz also looking for my Celine Dion minus one but it's missing! XD In the end... i opted to sing "run to you"... XD not too powerful.. not too grand.. but i guess that will do.. besides.. i don't have to practice for that one.. ^^ Oh by the way.. i have another cutesy kitty... but my lil bro named it "vester"! How original! XD Anyway.. thanks again to meowmeow for topping up my RO account! (sponsor... weee!) He also made another crusader for me.. (this time its an agi crusader).. well you can't blame me.. i really don't have enough time to play now... *sob* i can't even budget my time between studies, orgs, RO and meowmeow! *sigh* oh dear.. i've written so much already... and i still hafta review for my jap 11 exam... weee!!! anyway.. till next week guys! (i'm assuming that i'd still be loaded in the next few weeks so i can only update this during weekends). Bye for now! MWAH!

waaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!

2005-06-26T06:35:00.000-07:00

I have all the reasons to cry... my cutesy kitty.. a newborn... (2 weeks ago though) the one with the extraordinary color and prints.. died!!!!!!! waaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!! i don't exactly know what happened but my brother said that it was really playful.. it loves to hide in cramped places that's why it went towards the back of the refrigerator.. and was electrocuted.... waaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!!!! My only consolation is that my aunt will give me another one and that my other cat, will give birth soon. T-T *sniff* but no cat can ever replace that one.. she was really special to me.... *sob* My other reason... i wasn't able to go to toycon nor the RPC (though i wanted really bad to go) because of papers due for next week... waaaahh! anyways... i'll prepare another costume (really early) so that it'll be ready for any convention just in case. ^^

ZOOM

2005-06-25T18:18:00.000-07:00

Well.. i couldn't think of any title, just wrote zoom because i felt that that time really flies so fast. Last Monday was our presentation, we just thought of a song to sing.. i think 1 hr before the performance, i don't know the song so well i've memorized it right then and there and we practiced it for about 6 times i guess.. When we came up onstage, the sound system was ancient.. and when i said ancient.. its so distorted and ugly. And from past performances i know that it wouldn't work out well.. i forgot the lyrics! lolz anyhow.. thanks to some pieces of advice from my center for pop coaches, you see, i had the problem of forgetting the lyrics if i didn't practice enough.Because of that, i knew exactly what to do in times like that.. plain and simple... stage presence! ^^;; Last Wednesday, we had an AME special meeting about the upcoming anime fair.. it was really exhausting because i realized that we've got lotsa things to decide and do.. and aside from that.. i've learned that the AME applicants as of Thursday i think... reached 150 already! Holy Cow! XD Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining but it suddenly dawned on me that its going to be tiresome for us memcom. Not only that, my other org, COMMRESSOC, also has a hectic schedule of activities starting next week... T-T oh my... anyways i'll try my best to do all the works nonetheless.. I'm so so busy starting next week.. lotsa papers and orgworks to do.. By the way, I did a paper for my BC 100 (broadcast) about edsa 2.. i know that its an old topic but my prof required us to do that... i'll post that by next week because i haven't submitted that paper yet..... you know... for security purposes.. heheheh. ^^

Updates

2005-06-19T22:32:00.000-07:00

I'm not finished with the new layout yet.. have to think of something different from my usual layout.. XD and aside from that.. i've got loads of things to do.. i don't hate school but i hate the piles of readings my professors gave me.. how am i supposed to finish them all..? *sob* Org activities seemed to pile up too.. being a memcom for UP AME.. we've got lots of stuffs to do since its the start of application period.. so for those who are interested.. sign up at the FC Lobby starting next week... loads of work for the upcoming fair to.. ^^ As for my UP COMMRESSOC org.. i have been appointed as the Deputy for External Affairs.. weee! ^^ and since its the freshie night and orgfest on Tuesday.. i'm also included as one of the performers.. (i get to sing again.. ^^) thanks for the trust guys! NOW i can really say that i'm in demand these days... lolz! juz kiddin... wish me luck! Hope i'll get through all these stuffs without sacrificing my acads. ^^

1 year older

2005-06-18T23:00:00.000-07:00

Yeah! its my birthday today... uh.. and i'm already 19 yrs old.. ^_^;; i still have class this morning.. and its a saturday! XD we all wished for the class to be cancelled because today is the foundation day.. ^^;; but no... our professor came and talked nonstop.. he even forgot that we should be dismissed by 11:30 am... T-T anyway.. meowmeow fetched me (doggie ba ito? joke!) and treated me and my sister for lunch. When I got home.. I wuz surprised coz there were so many foods!!! weee! PARTY TIME! ^^ My fwends came over too... by the way.. thank you for the gifts and thanks to the people who remembered my birthday.. ^^

^_^

2005-06-12T19:27:00.000-07:00

Just wanna say thanks to meowmeow for loading my RO account.. lolz you're the best! mwah! I can't really write anything today coz i'm working on the new layout i mentioned before.. wee! 5 days till my birthday (june 18)!

I survived the 1st Week!

2005-06-11T22:05:00.000-07:00

Yeah.. its saturday and I almost forgot that i have a 3 hr class for today.. Comm 120 - the law of mass media. The teacher was cool that's why i have no qualms about going to school on a weekend.. XD Good thing some of the books we need are the revised penal code and other law books.. my dad has them all..weee! I don't have to buy those stuffs or go to the library.. (well except for the law of mass media book.. XD) This is just the start of a veeeerrryyy long semester... so... gudluck to me! ^^;;

Freya on the Loose

2005-06-07T18:58:00.000-07:00

Today is the judgement day... the CAL freshie orientation... XD i wuz really psyched up.. lolz anyways.. on my way to FC.. i saw a huge stage.. lo and behold! Parokya ni Edgar was there singing the 1st day funk thingie... with the guy on the rexona commercial (he's actually cute.. XD) weeee! Chito made my day! mwah! I had to bring my dark gunner yuna and ri kouran costume coz my groupmates borrowed them.. and since the Lenneth Valkyrie costume is too heavy and bulky.. i decided to wear the Freya costume instead.. (still from Valkyrie Profile). The skirt was too short and the dress itself was backless.. XD it was really cold.. BRRR! It was kinda embarassing that some of my blockmates saw me in costume though.. lolz I'm already expecting that they'll be teasing me about it the next day. I didn't have the jitters anymore coz i'm already used to it.. (all thanks to CPMP). Anyways.. thanks to UP AME for trusting us to represent the org! ^^v Also.. special thanks to Risha for giving us those encouraging words.. we were very lucky! To Anne and Nice... it was fun working with you guys...you were awesome! To Ate April.. ok lang yun! Sabotage! hahah! joke! anyways.. you were really enthusiastic.. its not your fault. And finally.. thanks to Ace! You were with us all throughout the time we were in the backstage..giving us all sorts of encouraging words.. heheh (thanks for the water too!) ^^;;

The Horror

2005-06-06T23:30:00.000-07:00

Everything went wrong today.. we can't find any karaoke version of Alone (Gensomaden Saiyuki), we opted to go to our orgmate's house in Capitol Hills just to practice and to download the blasted song. Alas, we couldn't find any... aside from that, we had to wait until 8:30 (i think) for his driver..coz as we all know.. no PUVs are present.. lolz. Meowmeow was very angry coz we're supposed to meet and i made him wait for about 5 hrs... T-T sowee meowmeow.. We went home empty handed.. T-T And to my horror.. (i should've asked him earlier.. he has everything we ever needed..) waaah! meowmeow has all the karaoke versions of GS songs... T_T anyways.. he was kind enough to burn it for me despite all the hassles he went through... XD peace!

one ordinary day

2005-06-05T22:10:00.000-07:00

we went to church then shopping afterwards.. for school supplies (RO notebooks.. XD heheh) and the usual kikay paraphernalia.. XD jerisse came over this afternoon coz i borrowed her costumes... can't decide which one i should wear for tuesday... heheh i want to wear new ones that's why i decided to borrow her stuffs.. anyways.. she was here until 8pm.. its too late to go home alone that's why i decided to let our driver drive her home.. (redundant.. XD) can't really say anything.. i'm in a hurry.. sowee.... have to practice...^^;;

A post Deleted

2005-06-05T01:00:00.000-07:00

my past entry.. entitled.. "A Message" was already deleted by me.. ^^ i've had a talk with one of them.. (took much of my time T-T) anyhow.. everything's settled and we arrived at an agreement.. to never talk about what happened, forget about it, forget about each other... Of course, with the things that happened between all of us, we can't say that we can be friends.. that's too much.. and too plastic if I may so.. anyways.. thanks for the time.. and goodluck.

Updates

2005-06-04T22:11:00.000-07:00

I was really really lucky last week! i got 15 units from crs that's why i get to finish the enrollment process in a jiffy.. although i had to persuade the manong to enlist me on a jap 11 class on the first day...(coz we had to wait till the 2nd day to enlist because of the tri-coll policy ^^) Aside from that, i got a 1.25 in both Socio 10 and Jap 10!!! weeee!!! (though i was aiming for a 1.00, a grade of 1.25 is not too bad, ayt?) Nice, Ann and Me (my UP AME orgmates) practiced today coz we're going to sing in the upcoming CAL freshie orientation.. And we'll get to sing in costumes too.. (ooohh... fun!) After that, we attended the GA and talked about our plans for the application process (i'm a part of the membership committee) and the upcoming AME fair 2005! its going to be another con.. (with cosplays, bands, contests.. the usual stuffs) weee! its slated for november.. everything's not finalized so i can't divulge any informations yet until everything's settled. ^^ but if you have any suggestions.. just put it in the tagboard or just text or email me. ^^

Wedding Bells

2005-05-31T22:31:00.000-07:00

weeee! me and meowmeow got married.. lolz! well our RO characters at least.. ^^;; it was really fun and cute and i kinda had this feeling of excitement. XD the wedding was sorta pricey too.. heheh but ze extra skills are useful coz we always play together. Anyways.. here are the screenshots of our wedding. ^^

Tsubasa Chronicle Fever

2005-05-29T23:00:00.000-07:00

this past week.. me and my siblings decided to have an anime marathon.. courtesy of meowmeow (he really has this huge collection of anime vcds.. heheh). We watched Maria sama ga miteru (sorta yuri for me... T-T), Midori no Hibi (many unnecessary stuffs were shown which were undeleted... T-T if you've watched it on animax.. you wouldn't know what i mean.. T-T ) and Tsubasa Chronicle! It's the latest anime series from CLAMP... meowmeow said that it's still being shown on Japan (i think it was aired last march or april2005) so he still has to download the next ones... waaahh! can't wait to watch the next episodes... Let me tell you why.. Tsubasa Chronicle features characters from their previous anime series.. (rolled into one! weee!). Sakura and Syaoran were the main characters (grown up versions ^^).. Touya is still Sakura's brother, Yukito is still his childhood friend, they're King and High priest respectively. Some of the characters are Mokona, Tomoyo, Arashi, Chii!, and i think I also saw Zagato... plus i know that there'll be a whole bunch of surprises. Of course the story is so different but they decided to keep the original names of the characters so it was fun (i had to identify which series the characters came from ^^). The opening and closing song plus the background tracks were awesome too! Waaahh! can't really wait!!!! In the meantime though... because of that.. i'll have to change my layout again.. lolz featuring tsabasa chronicle of course!! i hope i can find pictures.. so far, all i have are manga scans.. pictures are sooooo rare! ^_^;; *dreamy look* Syaoran........ *drools* ^_^;;

Ro and chocolates

2005-05-26T22:00:00.000-07:00

I went out today coz I have to pay for my cellphone bill.. anyway.. i was relieved that it didn't reach 3,000 like before.. XD after that.. my sister and i went to the nearest internet cafe coz she's going to meet someone. She left me there and told me to play RO until she gets back..wah! It was 1:30 in the afternoon... she was back at 5pm! can you imagine that? my head really ached.. well you can't blame me.. it was really dark in that place.. all the computer's radiation went straight to me.. lolz. I wasn't really lonely.. heheh, meowmeow accompanied me to umbala, the new map and supplied me with lots of white potz.. he upgraded my armors too. wahahah! love u meowmeow! Well.. as a compensation... my sister paid for my 1 hr of gametime (yeah... 1 hr lang...*sniff*) and gave me chocolates!!!! Surely, for those who knew me that well... they'll never go wrong with chocolates. *drools*

Lazy Girl

2005-05-24T22:35:00.000-07:00

woke up at 12pm today... lazy girl! *toinkz* heheh i asked mom for some money coz i want to go to the mall... hhhmm... what else? its a boring day so i can't really tell ya anything.. oh yeah, i spent all of my money playing mambo agogo.. XD heheh ^^ i didn't really noticed the time and it was until i stepped out of the mall that i realized...it was already 7 in the evening... T-T i guess that's it for now.. ^^ thanks for reading this entry.. heheh ^^