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Friday, April 29, 2005 ....[*[Wazzup!!!]*]....
hi'yah! sorry... since i don't have that much time.. i can only update this blog every fridays-sundays. (well not really since i'll try to post every now and then).. lesson learned: don't challenge yourself.. don't sign up for terror profs! not worth it! XD on the other hand.. i really love my Japanese class! This afternoon.. we watched an anime.. i forgot the title but it has "Totoro" as the last words in it.. heheh it was really funny. Sad to say, I had to leave the class at an earlier time coz my mom and dad fetched me.. they were calling me like crazy.. saying "hey! the car is already in the parking lot.. we have to go".. ^^ i can't really say anything else.. nothing much happened today...hhmmm... another thing though.. my socio 10 prof bombarded us with choco mallows and chocnuts because its her birthday today! nice eh! kept me awake for 2 hrs.. YUM! i'll try to post an essay of mine again tomorrow.. ^^;; until tomorrow then.. ^^ ja! BY THE WAY.. new layout again! the one before this was too simple.. i felt like i had to change it.. so.. TADA!!! I DID! hope you'll like this one!!
Saturday, April 23, 2005 ....[*[KUIZU]*]....
don't have the time to write something very long today.. i have a quiz on monday about hiragana and katakana.. heheh XD hope i'll pass that one! i really love my jap class! it's something i'm really interested in... we're like kinder students.. my teacher uses flashcards wherein we recite every characters.. I kinda hate the jap children's songs though.. kinda awkward for our age...i can't wait for our kanji lessons.. XD
Friday, April 22, 2005 ....[*[Dynamic me]*]....
This is an essay I passed for my sociology class.. its about the "self" again! Hope my reflections at the end of the essay will make you understand the point I was trying to make on the first essay I posted. "the fictional self" By the way.. this is the unedited one...XD "Hello! My name is Rosalin Angeli C. Merez, Ran for short and I’m a 2nd yr at UP Diliman, College of Mass Communication." That’s what I would probably say when I’m asked to describe myself. Frankly, whenever people ask me to tell them more about me, I just don’t know where to start. I always have a hard time describing me. I thought I could get away with it but even my friendster account asks me to tell something about myself! In contrast with other people who have tons of something to say about themselves, I couldn’t actually come up with anything so I always tell them, "just visit my online journal where I post all my thoughts, essays and daily experiences, maybe you’ll learn something." But a persistent one asked me, "does that mean.. you don’t know yourself?" Okay.. its not that I don’t know or I’m confused. I know myself pretty well, its just that I can’t exactly put it into words. If there is one word though, that will define me, it’s the word "complicated." I know who I am.. I am the daughter of a City Prosecutor and a businesswoman. I love Friedrich Nietzsche’s essays especially "Beyond good and evil" because I won the debate when I used it and gave me a satisfactory grade. However, I was almost misled and made to think that there is no such thing as morality because he was that good! I am shy, an introvert so to speak. I don’t talk to anyone unless they start the conversation but once they do, I talk nonstop. I lover music, in fact I somewhat mastered the art of playing the piano and even studied at center for pop music phils. to hone my singing skills. I love anime to the point that it inspired me to cosplay and also taught me to love and appreciate Japanese music. When I’m at home, you’ll find me surfing the net, or playing online RPGs. If not, you’ll find me infront of the TV, still playing RPGs.. this time, with playstation! I love drawing but I sort of set it aside to pave way for other things coz when I draw, all my time and attention are spent on one drawing for the reason that I am too much of a perfectionist, I don’t want to see any flaws. I believe that I am a passive and a nice one but once a person really pissed me off, I suddenly turn into someone completely opposite. I have written down too many descriptions but those are just tiny portions of me, a bit shallow if I may say so. Want to know why? Because I don’t think I have a core self, meaning there is nothing natural about my personality. I believe that all the qualities that make up the "me" are just products of social interactions, and education, be it from school, parents or just plain experiences. I can’t accurately describe myself coz I am flexible and fluid. I get to choose who I want to be, I can choose which direction I want to go. I am complicated because I am dynamic and ever-changing. I still have a lot more to learn that will again eventually change who I am. I might learn from my mistakes and change what is it in me which triggered that mistake. That’s what I call the process of growing up.
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TITLE: THE FICTIONAL SELF What do we really know about ourselves? Do you believe that the self is a natural metaphysical representation of who you really are? Do you really believe that there is such a thing as self-discovery? Why do we use the word discovery? Is it because our "self" is a hidden part of us that needs to be realized? Is it there all along? I believe it isn’t so.. why did I call it a fiction? I believe that who we are is a text written and rewritten from moment to moment according to the demands of the society. Who we are is who we choose to be. Am I making any sense? I don’t accept reasons such as "YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM BECAUSE THIS IS ME!" No.. there is no such as thing as a natural you! All of the descriptions of ourselves are scripts we have to act out. Ourselves is just a product of what the society dictates to us. We are creations of the cultures by which we choose to live. How can I say that? Consider this… you can write an autobiography of yourself today and describe everything about you.. however… after one or more years, you’ll write an autobiography of you again with a completely different description of you… why? Because you realized that you don’t like your former self that’s why you created and wrote another one according to your liking at the moment. Note: sorry folks, this essay isn’t polished and it isn’t even complete yet! Hope you’ll forgive some errors.. ^^ as for the contents.. blame it on me being a Nietzschean! XD
Saturday, April 16, 2005 ....[*[Normal Day]*]....
Well i guess this is just an ordinary day... my mom woke me up at 5:30 in the morning to change my 500 peso bill into 5 peso coins! can you imagine that?!! I have to go to the mall so my coin thingies are major bummers... too heavy... XD I met with my friend je and my super propmaker rayhan to buy stuffs for my lenneth valkyrie costume. Gosh I never thought that my costume will be that expensive... everytime i shell out cash from my atm, it really hurts! I wanna cry... T-T nah... its ok... i really love the character anyway.. second to yuna though... hehehe. On my way home.. I decided to buy a 1 whole roasted chicken for our lunch.. the thing is.. its about my coins...I wanted to get rid of them immediately... so that's the only money i have. It was kinda embarassing to count 100+php infront of the manong.. he laughed and told me "iha.. parang namalimos ka!" kinda weird... ^^;;; My summer class starts on monday so i guess i won't be posting this much again.. hope not!! ^^ By the way.. meowmeow will visit me tomorrow so I'm very very excited!! ^^
Friday, April 15, 2005 ....[*[Vampire Mode]*]....
*vampire mode* it's almost 12am.. XD updates: as you can see.. i have a new layout.. thanks to gal-rox-it (mwah!)! i just made a few changes (check out her link.. its cool!) i also deleted my past entries already.. that's why there's almost nothing left.. heheh by the way.. sorry for my last post yesterday.. my grammar sucks.. I was too wasted to think clearly that's why the thoughts were really unorganized. I'm also too lazy to edit it now.. ^^ our maid "ate lorna" left already.. my mom looked for a replacement coz "laging may sumpong" daw. I'm gonna miss her! parang may happy puppet syndrome eh.. nah.. juz kiddin! I paraded around our ice cream store with my cute-sy spider headband... its a black headband with two big spiders on top (looks like an octopus for me though..) held by springs so the spiders kinda wiggle whenever I move.. bought it from toy kingdom.. heheh. Some people were really amazed.. I don't care.. I look weird but I think it is reeeaaalllyyyy cute!!! ^^
Thursday, April 14, 2005 ....[*[Enrollment!!!]*]....
Waaaah! Bad day... I didn't get any of my classcards coz either they were unavailable or I was just too tired to get them... you can't blame me though.. It was really hot... Hahah.. this post should have been titled as RANTS, RANTS, RANTS... AND MORE RANTS! when i saw what subjects i got from the crs.. i was happy and disappointed at the same time... coz i got Sociology 10 (note: i was trying to get in that class since time immemorial.. and now finally... i got it!) i also got Japanese 10 but I was disappointed coz my 1st class is from 7-9 am... and my second class is slated at 1-3! can you beat that? 4 hrs!!!!!!! a total waste of time!!!!! oh well.. I wanted to finish early so didn't bother to change it... too bad.....
Tuesday, April 12, 2005 ....[*[my gawd...]*]....
its almost noon and i haven't eaten yet... blame it on my heavy sneezing! wah! I can't smell and taste anything!!! at least not yet.. hope i'll be fine soon! in times like this, you'll surely realize how important your taste buds are! heheh
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Music
these are some of my favorite songs.. more songs to be uploaded soon..
The Webmistress
made the doll in such a way that it looked sorta like me.. plus the pink outfit.. gah! Meet my counterpart.. PORKY! ^^ Name: Rosalin Angeli C. Merez Age: 19 School: UP Diliman Course: CommRes ^^ Hobbies: Drawing, singing, PLAYING RPGs (you know, the ff series, and yeah! online games! woohoo! hooray for ragnarok!), collecting anime and cutesy stuffs, shoes.. lots of em, cosplaying, instrument: piano, tinkering weblayouts, fanfic writing Loves meowmeow! pink.. chocolates (ESP. Cadbury Hazelnuts).. almost anything.. lolz jk! well..the best way to bribe me is through my stomach and sweet tooth XD Hates posers, people who think they're high and mighty, backstabbers, gooey stuffs, blood and gore sorceress_ran@yahoo.com That's about it I guess... (for now..)
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