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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

....[*[Ran the Procrastinator]*]....

I am supposed to be typing the introduction, background of the study, significance of the study for our thesis at this moment.. but I've been staring at the computer for almost 3 hours now and I haven't typed anything yet.. (kill me now mama wena T-T , i'm a procrastinator.. ) come to think of it.. i have all the resources, books i borrowed from the library, photocopied stuffs, journals, unlimited internet connection plus a pc that I can hog all day.. :( but I don't know why I can't do it.. (geez I've been doing these kind of stuffs for the past semesters.. my brain hibernated.. damn)

Since I got home today, I've been thinking (so hard that my head ached) about stuffs that I've been doing these what.. past few weeks? My life's a total mess but I can't do anything about it.. I've been taking eveything in stride until I finally realized that I can't get out.. Finally, fate knocked some good sense into my head.. i'll have to rearrange everything and deal with it.. darn.. its hard to face reality when you're in front of it.

what's my purpose anyway? nah don't answer it.

I found a blog... accidentally.. and I read it for a good 1 hour.. hahah... but I was kinda disappointed coz I was actually looking for some sort of entry that will enlighten me but nada.. that person is so vain.. never talked about other people.. oh wells..

talked to one person in YM today.. I've been wanting to have a serious talk since time immemorial but he never gave it to me.. until now.. he never did.. he's still blaming me and other people for everything... you see.. i just wanted to straighten things out so that personal issues can finally rest...
when I asked him about an important thing and how he's feeling.. he said he doesn't know...
suddenly.. i felt like the most horrible creature that roamed this planet..
I feel bad..
he even left without saying goodbye..

I guess nobody will ever take me seriously..
so pathetic..

*lightbulb on*

GEE! now I know why I can't do anything right!

(chant these stuffs 100 times)

must put off personal issues, be on zombie mode.. then write thesis stuffs..

must not feel anything..

*done*

so easy... right? : )

DAMN! who am I kidding??

I need a break! I seriously seriously need a friggin break!

or else i'll break.. :(

"Life moves very fast ; it rushes us from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds..."

Ran 11:44 AM

Music

these are some of my favorite songs.. more songs to be uploaded soon..

The Webmistress

made the doll in such a way that it looked sorta like me.. plus the pink outfit.. gah! Meet my counterpart.. PORKY! ^^

Name: Rosalin Angeli C. Merez

Age: 19

School: UP Diliman

Course: CommRes ^^

Hobbies: Drawing, singing, PLAYING RPGs (you know, the ff series, and yeah! online games! woohoo! hooray for ragnarok!), collecting anime and cutesy stuffs, shoes.. lots of em, cosplaying, instrument: piano, tinkering weblayouts, fanfic writing

Loves

meowmeow! pink.. chocolates (ESP. Cadbury Hazelnuts).. almost anything.. lolz jk! well..the best way to bribe me is through my stomach and sweet tooth XD

Hates

posers, people who think they're high and mighty, backstabbers, gooey stuffs, blood and gore

Email

sorceress_ran@yahoo.com

That's about it I guess... (for now..)

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